Pink Kaoru

2005-08-13T11:52:00.000-07:00

Music: Ame no Kaigandoori - Kagerou
Mood: Bored

Haven't updated this thingy in a while..I've sorta gone back to my LJ mostly...

So my mp3 player died today. Makes me so angry. You have no idea...and that's all I'm gonna say because I'm so pissed off. Well..that and my mum's computer is SHIT. I FUCKING HATE IT.

I'm waiting for Meghan to call me... CALL BACK PLEASE.... I wanna know when you need me over there.. I'm so bored...and I have no laptop to watch because it's at Saku's >___< I wanna watch my D PV...

2005-07-28T09:47:00.000-07:00

Music: Pink Cherry - PANIC*ch
Mood: Kinda stuffy O__o;;

I HATE YOU HTML. 'Nuff said.. I'm trying to make my own mp3 rotation site.. And I'm having issues. It the first time I've ever used an iFrames layout..so I don't know where to type so that it's in the box >__O It's the most frustrating thing.. T___T I need help from someone who really knows HTML... I guess I still don't know enough about it..ahaha. Oh well. I don't mind. I can just start up on it some other time..

I thought I had to go to work today..so I woke up all early and junk..dododo.. >___>;; I dunno when my dad's coming back to pick me up..or if he's even gonna do that...

2005-07-27T09:16:00.000-07:00

Music: Pride - D
Mood: Groggy

~___~ Geeze...I just figured out how to make little hearts ♥ Took me freaking long enough don't you think? I wonder if I can make little stars the same way...

No.. I guess not XD oh well that's ok... I like stars better but hearts will do for now..

2005-07-26T19:54:00.000-07:00

Music: The tv for some weird reason..
Mood: Devious >:D

XD Ryo! You make me laugh... Commenting in this thing! I was suprised because like no one comments in my blog. Ah damn..look another tiny post..

OH! I know! XD I've gotta go to the lady with the little doggie's house tomorrow. I guess something happened with the fans in her house or something.. Or maybe my dad and I just have to go there for another inspection or something.. *shrugs* I don't really know..all I know is that that lady's husband came back from Cali the other day to find that his basement had been flooded while he was gone. So he called us tonight...yeah..

2005-07-26T14:50:00.000-07:00

Music: Fraiser
Mood: XD

YES! New layout! I've negected this thing for a while.. XD Yay for Kirito! Well..it'll be Kirito until Sar-ah comes back and finishes my Uruha layout. ^__^

Happy-ness.. And a really short post.. Haha..

2005-07-21T00:21:00.000-07:00

Music: Reila - Gazette
Mood: Mer..

Well..it happened.. That's all I'm gonna say.. If you wanna know more just go read my LJ (which is now friends only so if you're not a friend of mine then to bad) or you can IM me.. I don't really care either one works. Yeah..heh..

I just got the whole Kozi discography now. Hahah I win!

2005-07-18T20:21:00.000-07:00

Aoi would love you!!>< you're never lie with who you love. you're very honest. ^^
Which member of Gazettte would love you?
brought to you by Quizilla

It's not Uruha but that's ok! Aoi's hott too! XD And besides he's like my second favorite out of the band!

2005-07-18T17:28:00.000-07:00

Music: The ending theme song of Oresama
Mood: Happy

Well..I just finished watching the movie Oresama. ~_~ Freaking Miyavi is hella crazy..wtf.. He's all twitchy and stuff..but he is still an amazing guitarist. Yeah..

O___O Wow, I just asked my dad when we were going to go camping this coming weekend so that I can get back to my mum's in time to hang out with people. T____T YAY! I'M SO HAPPY NOW. SPREAD THE WORD. I can't wait now..it'll be awesome.. Now I get to hang out with people..

Man..I'm so bored..and I like don't have to work tomorrow.. GONNA BE BORED OUT OF MY MIND. Mer..it's gonna suck ass yo..

2005-07-15T07:40:00.000-07:00

Music: Morning News
Mood: Groggy

Haven't updated this in a while.. Heh..

MIDNIGHT TONIGHT HARRY POTTER COMES OUT! XD I want that book so bad!! Maybe I can talk my dad into getting it for me... Gotta find out what happens... >__>

OH. And for those of you who don't read my Live Journal I have decided on how I'm going to cut my hair. I would post the pictures in here but there's not enough room in my blog to completely show them. Here's a link to my LJ just incase you wanna look but are to lazy to scoll down the sidebar for the link that's always there.

CLICKU HERE~

2005-07-10T23:24:00.000-07:00

Music: Vampire Missa - D
Mood: Tired

T____T I'm going through Saku withdrawls.. I haven't talked to her in ages it seems.. We always seem to miss each other online..makes me sad.. *sigh* I wish I wasn't so busy with work..and she wasn't so busy with school..and we could just BS online like we did like all last year..

Here are some icons I made. Yay for Jrock icons! I only feel like uploading these two..so yeah..
MUCC

Merry

2005-07-08T17:17:00.000-07:00

Music: Melissa - Porno Graffiti
Mood: Happy ^__^

Well this week has been a long one. I haven't had time to update this thing..I've been so tired lately.. ^_^; BUT I do have some good news. I have discovered a new band that have caught my attention.. DOREMIdan. I kind of like them.. They've got this sort of jazz swing type of element to their music kinda like SID. That must be what I like about them. I'm also trying to find some music by D because they sound interesting as well.. I'll go and look for some on Jrock_Uploads later..

Horray, it's the weekend. That means that I get to stay on and talk to people. T__T It seems like I haven't talked to Saku in forever. So sad. Maybe later tonight Sarah will be on and I can see what she's done with my layout for this thing. O___O It's gonna be an Uruha one. AMAZING-NESS. I heart Uruha.. he so ownes Aoi XD It's funny..poor Aoi.. Speaking of Aoi I need to work on my icon featuring him. I made a Tetsu one ^_^ Tetsu from Merry that is. I'm gonna make a bunch now that I have a version of Adobe Photoshop on my comuter..haha. It's gonna rock.

2005-07-02T14:40:00.000-07:00

Music: Tell Me - hide
Mood: Bored..as usual

Well..yeah.. Not much going on today. I've been bored like all day... Haven't found anything good to download..no one's online... BORING-NESS.

Haha..my sister's bitching that someone hacked into her account on Gaia. Serves her right..she's a pain in the ass about Gaia..she always has to tell me what the hell is going on on the bloody site. IF I FUCKING CARED I'D BE ON GAIA. BUT I DON'T GIVE A RATS ASS SO DON'T TELL ME. -_- She makes me so angry. I can't wait until I go back to Lacey and leave her here for a month. She better not come back with me..or I'll be hella pissed... YAR.

2005-06-29T13:01:00.000-07:00

You entered: 8/22/1988
You were born on a Monday
under the astrological sign Leo.
Your Life path number is 11

The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2447395.5.
The golden number for 1988 is 13.
The epact number for 1988 is 11.
The year 1988 was a leap year.

As of 6/29/2005 2:43:58 PM CDT
You are 16 years old.You are 202 months old.
You are 879 weeks old.You are 6,155 days old.
You are 147,734 hours old.You are 8,864,083 minutes old.
You are 531,845,038 seconds old.

There are 54 days till your next birthday
on which your cake will have 17 candles on it.

Those 17 candles produce 17 BTU's,
or 4,284 calories of heat (that's only 4.2840 food Calories!) .
You can boil 1.94 US ounces of water with that many candles.

Your birthstone is Peridot
The Mystical properties of Peridot

Peridot is used to help dreams become a reality.
Some lists consider these stones to be your birthstone. (Birthstone lists come from Jewlers, Tibet, Ayurvedic Indian medicine, and other sources)

Sardonyx, Diamond, Jade

Your birth tree is

Cedar, the Confidence Of rare beauty, knows how to adapt, likes luxury, of good health not in the least shy, tends to look down on others, self-confident, determined, impatient, wants to impress others, many talents, industrious, healthy, optimism, waiting for the one true love, able to make quick decisions.

There are 179 days till Christmas 2005!

The moon's phase on the day you were
born was waxing gibbous.

OH DANG! O____O Isn't that amazing? Here's a link for all of you.. http://www.paulsadowski.com/birthday.asp

You entered: Elizabeth Ann Howe
There are 16 letters in your name.
Those 16 letters total to 78
There are 7 vowels and 9 consonants in your name.

Your number is: 6

The characteristics of #6 are: Responsibility, protection, nurturing, community, balance, sympathy.

The expression or destiny for #6:The number 6 Expression provides you a truly outstanding sense of responsibility, love, and balance. The 6 is helpful and ever conscientious, making you quite capable of rectifying and balancing any sort of inharmonious situation. You are a person very much inclined to give help and comfort to those in need. You have a natural penchant for working with the old, the young, the sick, or the underprivileged. Although you may have considerable creative and artistic talents, the chances are that you will devote yourself to an occupation that shows concern for the betterment of the community.
The positive side of the number 6 suggests that you are very loving, friendly, and appreciative of others. You have a depth of understanding that produces much sympathetic, kindness, and generosity. The qualities of the 6 make the finest and most concerned parent and one often deeply involved in domestic activities. Openness and honesty is apparent in your approach to all relationships.
If there is an excess of the number 6 in your makeup, you may exhibit some of the negative traits associated with this number. There may be a tendency for you to be too exacting and demanding of yourself. In this regard, you may at times sacrifice yourself (or your loved ones) for the welfare of others. In some cases, the over zealous 6 has difficulty distinguishing helping from interfering. You may have difficulty expressing your own individuality, because of involvement with responsibilities and causes. Like all with the Expression of the number 6, it's quite likely that you worry much too much.

Your Soul Urge number is: 6

A Soul Urge number of 6 means: With a number 6 Soul Urge, you would like to be appreciated for your ability to handle responsibility. Your home and family are likely to be a strong focus for you, perhaps the strongest focus of your life. Friendship, love, and affection are high on your list of priorities for a happy life. You have a lot of diplomatic tendencies in your makeup, as you a able to rectify and balance situations with an innate skill. You like working with people rather than by yourself. It is extremely important for you to have harmony in your environment at all times.
The positive side of the 6 Soul Urge produces a huge capacity for responsibility; you are always there and ready to assume more than your share of the load. If you possess positive 6 Soul Urges and express them, you are known for your generosity, understanding and deep sympathetic attitude. Strong 6 energy is very giving of love, affection, and emotional support. You may have the inclination to teach or serve your community in other idealistic ways. You have natural abilities to help people. You are also likely to have artistic and creative leanings.
If you have an over-supply of 6 energy in your makeup, you may express some of the negative traits common to this number. With such a strong sympathetic attitude, it is easy to become too emotional. Sometimes the desires to render help can be over done, and it can become interfering and an attitude that is too protective, rather than helpful. The person with too much 6 energy often finds that people tend to take advantage of this very giving spirit. You may tend to repress your own needs so that you can cater to the demands from others. At times, there may be a tendency in this, for becoming over-loaded with such demands, and as a result become resentful.

Your Inner Dream number is: 1

An Inner Dream number of 1 means: You dream of being a leader and one who is in charge. You want to be known for your courage, daring, and original ideas. You seek unconquered heights. People may get a first impression that you are very aggressive and sure of yourself

T____T This one is true too! I'm scared!! http://www.paulsadowski.com/Numbers.asp

2005-06-28T20:06:00.000-07:00

Music: Kozi - Honey Vanity
Mood: Kinda tired

Well today was interesting. We went up to visit Chad at his garage turned "higher class" garage with ceder siding. Amazing, ne? He's moving up in the world. But I realized how much Montana sucks..while we were staning out in front of his garage, sinking into the mud..fucking mud, some bar fight broke out down in Martin City, which is just up the street a ways. So some poor hick had to be air lifed out of the canyon and back to the hospital. So we watched the helicopter land and take off. That was amazing. And then we stopped at the gas station..and watched all the shitty slutty girl's walk around in their whorish short skirts..and all the creepy meth users go in and out. BUT, there was on awesome thing that happened today. I SAW AN ASIAN GUY O__O Some Japanese guy..who was actually FROM Montana. Fucking amazing..and I thought I would never see any asians here because they're smarter than to move to the hell hole known as Montana.

I also downloaded a bit more stuff, and I have like 42% of my hard drive space left too. Haha. I win.

2005-06-27T13:38:00.000-07:00

Music: Beauty and Stupid - hide
Mood: XD

One of the universe's great mysteries has been solved.. I have discovered who plays the guitar solo duing Muzzle, Muzzle, Muzzle. O___O It's Sakito.. Whoamygosh. And here Saku and I thought that it was Hitsugi.. But the live fotage I just downloaded of that song proves that it's Sakito.. Very amazing and un-expected at the same time..

Ahhhh..so bored here.. I wanna go back. I miss everyone in Washington T___T Saaaakkuuuuuu... I want my dad to put me to work so I can get paid and have something to do.. Because if I keep on downloading I'm not going to have any space left on this laptop..it's already half filled up... Heh..

Yay I get to watch the Late Night shows tonight. Woo! A new summer tradition that has been started for me..watch David Letterman and then Conan O'Brian.. God..I really have no life..

2005-06-26T09:46:00.000-07:00

Music: ENEMY - Pierrot
Mood: Happy

OMG! T___T I'm so freaking happy! Last night my dad and I fixed his other laptop!! Do you know what that means?! It means that I get the laptop that we fixed! I have a laptop! XD FUCK YESSSS! I love it..I should name it.. And put stickers on it.. And I even get the printer that comes with the laptop ^__^ He's letting me keep that too! This is fucking amazing.. *pets laptop* I love you so fucking much....maybe I shouldn't quote Excel Saga so much.. >_>;; Yeah.. Now the next big job is transfering all my files, all 5.somethingorother GB, to this laptop from my dad's.. That's going to take forever... -_- Son of a bitch.. Well I have like all summer...

Speaking of my files I have to go burn my Hide cd that I downloaded yesterday. I've got so many cds now.. One whole Asian Kung-Fu Generation album, four Pierrot albums, and now this Hide one. Totally making my day here..

2005-06-24T13:10:00.000-07:00

Music: Reila PV - Gazette
Mood: Content

This PV is fucking amazing.. AMAZING. One of the best PVs I've seen..like ever..

But anywho. I'm in the process of downloading a Malice Mizer concert because it was like the only good think I could find to download off this torrent site I found.. And maybe later today I'll get my Nightmare PVs from Saku.. Mmmm..Nightmare... I think there was something else she was gonna send me..but I don't remember.. Meh.

Oh! I put new pics of me up on MySpace! If you've got an account or whatever here's a link to myspace: http://www.myspace.com/taka_howe So go check it out if you want! ^__^ Kinda spiffy if you ask me.. I might put them up somewhere else so that those of you who don't have a MySpace can check em out!

2005-06-23T02:10:00.000-07:00

Music: Akuro no Oka - Dir en grey
Mood: Sad..

Le sigh.. Kinda on the depressed side tonight.. This is going to be a bit of a moping post.. Just thinking about things.. Sometimes it just sorta feels like no one listens to me.. ~_~ I dunno..hard to explain..just seems like that sometimes.. That and I'm kind of tired of constantly being teased by everyone. That gets old too. -__- I just feel blergh right now... Need some love I suppose.. I'm gonna go be sad somewhere else now..

2005-06-22T13:44:00.000-07:00

Music: Marry of the Blood - +D'espairsRay+
Mood: Happy

So last night I downloaded a bit of stuff. Not a whole lot but enough to keep me occupado. And the more I listen to +D'espairsRay+ I like them.. Along with Kagerou. If I could find a really good Torrent site then I could download a crap load of stuff..but I haven't found one..and that makes me sad.. -_- I'll just have to keep looking around for one I suppose..after all I do have like the whole summer to look. I really want to download a concert or two..of something..perferably Gazette or Nightmare. Maybe someone else..I dunno.. But it'd make my day..haha.

@___@ Ack..transition between Marry of the Blood to Utada Hikaru's Simple and Clean just killed my brain.. I downloaded that song because she's got really good English and the song is from Kingdom Hearts so I love it.

I think I'll go and look at pictures of Jrockers to get an idea of how I want to cut my hair when I get back to Washington. Cuz I really wanna cut it after it grows out over the summer. That and I can look for pictures to cosplay next year at SakuraCon. I really want to do Kirito from Neogrotesque though..but I can't find any good pictures of it..so that might be what's gonna stop me from doing that one. I dunno, we'll see..

2005-06-20T21:34:00.000-07:00

Music: Soine Pesari - Kagerou
Mood: Bored..

Today sucked..I couldn't go anywhere.. My dad wouldn't take me any place..I wanted to go hang out at Borders but he wouldn't let me.. Maybe I'll walk there sometime.. Tomorrow? I dunno.. I just really want to go buy some books or something.

BLARGH.. SO BORED >____< This is death... Yar..

2005-06-19T16:53:00.000-07:00

Music: Nothing
Mood: Thirsty

Well I'm here at my dad's now. Rock on. Got the whole summer ahead of me...it's gonna be long and boring. ~_~ Yay. I was trying to figure out how to work Photo Shop Pro..not working so well.. But the good thing is, is that I have cable internet. FUCK YES. Yar, now I'm just rambling..not much more to talk about.. Blergh...

2005-06-15T16:32:00.000-07:00

You all should go to my LiveJournal and let me know what you think about these test results that I got. You can either reply on my LJ or back on here..whatever works for me.. The link to my LJ is under my link section of my blog to the left..

2005-06-10T18:54:00.000-07:00

Music: Blue Monday - Orgy
Mood: Stomach ache

Ick.. My stomach's bugging me. I don't like it when it does..blegh.. So I've been listening to Blue Monday and figuring out how to play it on my guitar so that Saku and I can have a jam session sometime before I leave for my dad's, which is hella soon..the end of next week. I hope I can get it down..mostly just the fingering.. It's pretty much just the same power chord.. But my speed sucks. And I dislike the bridges..because it's a lot of shifting up and down the neck..but that's alright. Only 7 notes to remember between the intro and the bridges. I'll probably get it by the end of next week. ^__^ I'm not to worried..just mostly about my speed..

Tomorrow Wood, Oland and I are supposed to do the filming for out final project for AP US. But looking at the weather right now..I'm not so sure it'll be so good.. It's raining right now..which mean's it'll probably rain tomorrow..and we might have to do it on Sunday. Mer..frustraiting..

2005-06-06T18:04:00.000-07:00

Music: The movie Mystery Train
Mood: Cold >_O

Well..yeah..I'm bored out of my mind. Adam burned me my PANIC*ch PVs tonight. T__T Thank you Adam!! So tomorrow will be good. I get my PVs and we get our yearbooks tomorrow also.

And I'm watching some crazy movie..I don't really understand what it's about..but this Japanese couple just fucked >__O yeah.. It was amazing.. And this chick just saw the ghost of Elvis.. Strange movie...

2005-06-05T17:58:00.000-07:00

Music: Zassou ~Be Awake~ - PANIC☆ch
Mood: Happy but cold

Well I finally did it. I cleaned the hell out of my room. I can finally walk through it without tripping over stuff or having to navigate my tiny path through the mess. And not only that but my closet's completely clean too! Along with under my bed! O___O It's so amazing.. Y'all should come and see for yourselves... And you can even go in my closet if you want! XD Yeah... Oh, and I found a bunch of neat stuff too..like a ton of shirts that I didn't know I had. And a bunch of other junk too.

2005-06-02T17:38:00.000-07:00

Music: Yokan - Dir en grey
Mood: Kinda Tired

Well..yeah.. I haven't written in here in a while so I thought I would. Not much has happened... I'm still uber stressed about school. People, namely my dad and mum, keep telling me not to stress and to knock it off. Like I can help it! It's my fucking future we're talking about! And I hightly doubt that they never freaked out like this when the were Juniors and Seniors in high school. -_- Ugh. I really, really hate my life sometimes. I just have to last for this year..then next year will be way easier for me for the most part. Once I start college with Saku things'll be easier too because then we'll actually be on our way and there will be actual order in my life.

2005-05-28T20:47:00.000-07:00

Music: Nothing
Mood: Stressed

I hate school..I want to start my Running Start classes because I know that they will be better than the fucking horrible ones at high school. I had a looooong talk with my dad about my grades and what I'm going to do..and I did the same to with my mum. Now I just feel like crap. Fucking sucks. I hate school. I've had the worse time in high school ever this year..and last year sucked too. Freshman year was the only good year in high school that I had. And my parents wonder why I want to do Running Start and why I want to leave school early? Hah. That's all that I have to say to that. I fucking need to bring like all my grades up.. Mostly math and chem. Damn fucking classes. I hate them both. But I can't talk about this more or I'll start crying again. I'm so frustrated it's not even funny...

So last night I went out with Leeroy. I ended up meeting his sister Janet. O__o She is a bit strange but she was nice to me so she's fine so far. We ended up going to the movies and dinner with Janet and her fiance or whatever he is.. Then Leeroy and I went back to his place..he snuck me in because both his parents and his brother were at home. So to make a long story short I stayed the night at Leeroy's. ^__^ Amazing, ne? And we were semi-good..haha..sorta.. But it was nice..even though I realized after I woke up in the morning that I was sleeping in the middle of the bed and he had only gotten like an hour of sleep..Oh well.. And I have only ONE lightish mark on me. He was better about leaving marks on me last night. But that's all I'm going to say about that for the time being ^_^;; Yeah... because I suck like that. And yes I'll tell you in person later Saku and you will be prouder of me.. Yes..can't speak english..

2005-05-26T19:26:00.000-07:00

Music: The Game Of Death
Mood: Hot

Mwahaha I love Bruce Lee..this movie fotage rocks. It's to bad he's dead. That man really knew what the hell he was doing with his life.. Actually he would be one person that I'd like to meet.. O__o Yeah I know I sound creepy but I'm on a real Bruce Lee kick so it's gonna happen. Haha. Shit yo..I just realized..instead of Ninja-ing people I'll Kung Fu them with my Samurai skills. XD I so rock...

So tomorrow I'm supposed to go over to Adam's house with Saku and Nathan.. I dunno how that's gonna work.. We don't have anyway of getting there..that and I'm supposed to go out with Leeroy tomorrow too.. I told him to meet me at my school at like 4:30 ish or so.. Yeah..I need to talk with Saku about that more..

2005-05-24T20:42:00.000-07:00

Music: Hold Still the Red Light - Boys of Pencey Prep
Mood: Bored

This song is awesome.. I really like this band.. I found a link about them on Beef's Xanga and decided to check it out..and lo and behold I found a hella spiffy underground indies band. Fucking rocks..I just wish my crappy computer could stream stuff better..that way I could listen to the whole song without it blipping.. ~_~ But yeah..

By the way here's a link for those of you who are curious:

2005-05-22T20:27:00.000-07:00

Music: Virtual Bansankai - Sid
Mood: Cold..ick..

So I saw the play with Saku and her boy last night. It was soooo good. They worked really hard on that and it definatly shows. All the singers were amazing.. And so were the songs themselves. On the way home Saku's aunt asked me a bit more about Leeroy.. ^_^;; Yeah.. I think everyone's still amazed that I have a boyfriend..

Today I went with Meghan to get her hair cut. It's so short now! She cut like 12 or 13 inches off! :O Crazy, yo! But it looks so good! It makes me want to do cool stuff to my hair..I wanna cut it all cool and color it cool.. But I have to wait for it to grow back out again before I do.. I don't really have that much hair to work with.

On Friday Leeroy wants me to go to Aberdeen with him, his sister and her fiance to see Star Wars. I'm afraid to meet his sister.. I've had both Saku and her mum tell me that she's crazy... So that should be interesting to say the least.. ~_~ How did I get sucked into that one? Answers anyone? And another thing that should make it interesting is that she thinks I'm 18.. >_O yeah..they better not try and get in some place that you need to be 18 or older to get into or I'm screwed..

2005-05-21T08:52:00.000-07:00

Music: Sakuro Kata no Yuukutsu - Gazette
Mood: >_O

Argh.. so last night I snuck out of the house at about 11 to go out with Leeroy.. We went and got pizza and then went to his house and ate sooo much. I had like 5 pieces of pizza and breadsticks and cinnimonn sticks..it was awesome. Then we watched Chobits and snuggled on his sofa ^_^ That was cute.. After watching like 5 episodes we headed outside to where he had a dart board set up and we started playing to see who could hit closest to the bull's eye. I totally kicked his ass with my samurai skills. XD It was amazing..and then came the longer part of the evening..serious making out and grope-age. Haha and this was outside..then we decided to head inside..which we did, on the couch..until Leeroy's brother got home..then I had to book it upstairs to Leeroy's room -_- Cuz we suck... Then we quietly continued what we were doing before until his brother either left or went to bed..I dunno which he did.. I got home at like 3:45.. And now I've discovered that I have like three fucking hickeys from him.. -_- One little-ish one on one side and two bigger-ish ones on the other.. God dammit..he's trying to get me in trouble... Thank god they're light enough, well for the most part, to cover up with makeup.

Well today should be an interesting day.. 4 hours of sleep bitch! XD And I'm gonna stay up late tonight again! Horray for the play! Haha..

2005-05-19T22:02:00.000-07:00

Music: A to the Core - Dir en grey
Mood: Irked

ARGH MY SISTER FUCKING PISSES ME OFF. I HAVE NEVER IN MY LIFE BEEN THIS ANGRY FOR THIS LONG OF A TIME. I don't even know what to say anymore.. But I thought I'd post this poem thingy that I made off this poem generator I found..angsty because I'm fucking angsy and pissed..

move silently and numbly to the grey sky beyond
don't remember on the beach at sun rise to drown in grey winter
blurred sky is shattering into a thousand pieces
my shadow is dark and swift keeping me from reaching the surface of the water
I would breath if I begin to slip away
somebody a lonely girl
the last breath of life for you

It's kinda funny because of the way the generator is..but it's still fucking strange..yeah..

2005-05-17T20:09:00.000-07:00

Music: Jesus Christ R'n R - Dir en grey
Mood: Cold

Man..I got around to copying Diru's Withering to Death CD to my computer along with X Japan's complete single CD thingy. The only problem is, is that Mizu's Diru cd has 18 songs on it and the discography's I keep finding for Withering to Death only have 14 songs on them.. What the hell? I don't understand that..maybe it's just like that because she got it from China..I dunno..But I only need two more songs because Mizu gave me the one's I was missing (that were in English so we could read them..) Yeah..

2005-05-15T10:48:00.000-07:00

Music: Duvet - BoA
Mood: Have a bit of a headache..

Damn..I've missed this song. BoA's English is amazing.. It makes me wanna go watch Serial Experiments Lain, cuz this is the theme song to that show haha. I found guitar tabs to it the other day and I'm gonna learn to play it which shouldn't be hard because it's like three chords: G, Bm, and Em. Nice, ne?

So yesterday was prom. It was kinda boring.. I suppose my sitting around didn't help that any. But I did dance. After I got back home I went online and talked to Leeroy for a bit and then we decided to go out. So I popped the screen out of my window, again, and hung out with him for about an hour. He went and bought me a croissant and a soda because I was hungry. Then we headed back towards my house and ended up sitting at the park across from my house making out for like 15 minutes. Haha. And this time I didn't bleed. So yeah..those were my adventures for last night. Maybe today I can go with Meghan to the mall and what not. She called and wanted to do something because her brother's having a party and they're all going to Laser Quest and she has nothing to do.

2005-05-14T08:19:00.000-07:00

Music: Yokan - Dir en grey
Mood: Tired

Ugh..last night was crazy.. I got back from hanging out with Leeroy and like an hour after I'd been on the internet Saku got on and was like: "I wanna go to Sheri's..wanna come?" At first I was like, eh...I dunno..mum saw that I was home..I can't sneak out again.. So she told me to climb out my window, which I did, and we went and picked up Brandon and Gabe and went to Sheri's. We were there for a bit just hangin out and BSing until like midnight when this guy that Saku calls Kyle from Kansas came with his friend Brian. Yeah..that was interesting..and so we ended up going to Brian's house and playing pool until about1:45 in the morning and then Michi took Saku and I home.. I had to climb back into the window and then try and put the screen back..that was interesting..I had to run outside this morning and pop it all the way back into place..

And to top it off I got woken up at 7 this morning because my dad freaking called and I have a phone in my room.. ~_~ That sucked.. And my mum and I got in a fight about prom again. She's pissed that I had to pay for the tickets and thinks that Michi is totally screwing me over by making me pay $54 bucks for them. She says that dinner and gas won't add up to be that much. WTF? It pisses me off when she does this stuff. If it was Natalie going with me and who had made me pay for the tickets it would probably be different. I'm sorry Wood, I don't like using you as and example, but that's just how fucking selective and nazi-esque my mum is. Fucking pisses me off.. So right before I leave with Michi I'm going to say something to the effect of: "I'll even keep a tab on how much Michelle spends just for you!" And then go out the door.

..I have to get all ready for prom now.. I don't know how the hell I'm gonna do my hair. -_- My hair skills aren't that great and my mum's no help, not that I want her fucking help after saying that about Michi. I should fucking get drunk tonight just for the hell of it.. I'm sure Wood'll want to...haha..

2005-05-13T21:40:00.000-07:00

Music: Reila - Gazette
Mood: Happy and a bit tired

I got back from my evening with Leeroy about 40 minutes ago. That was interesting as always. We mostly drove around and went to the mall to hang out at the arcade. He had to tease me about moving up to Standard on DDR..I really should but I hate jumping.. -_-;; Such a slacker.. And then we ate dinner and then left because I remembered that my mum was taking my sister to the mall to look for a sweatshirt..so we decided to be cool and not get caught and left. Then we went to Wonderwood Park and walked around for a bit and watched little kids play baseball. After that we decided to go back to his place to watch some anime but it turned out that his dad was at his house..so we went out for coffee instead. And then he decided that he was going to trade in all of his GameBoy Advanced games so he could buy a PSP..so we went back to his house and I waited for him to get all of his crap..I stood and stared at his brother's car while his brother was working on it.. So we went back to the mall AGAIN and he bought his PSP and two games for it. And then we decided that I should go home so I didn't get in trouble.. Which was good. We were all gonna make out in his car but decided against it because it was already almost 9 and my mum was at home and I didn't want her or my sister coming outside and seeing us.. That and I didn't especially want to bleed again.. Heh..

2005-05-12T18:47:00.000-07:00

Music: Nervous Breakdown Party - SID
Mood: Kinda tired

Well it turns out that they'll be selling tickets for prom at lunch tomorrow and at the door. So there's no sweaton getting them. I'll look up what time the bank opens and then call them and ask about my balance.

I got Leeroy into taking me to SPS today to turn in my Running Start paper work. I'll be taking Intro to Office at 8:00 am and then Japanese 101 at 9:00 am. I'm such a slacker.. But I couldn't take Writing 101 because it was full -_- Bastards.. But the lady was nice and talked to us a lot which was cool. And my lip still hurts.. Leeroy fucking nicked it with his tooth this afternoon and made me bleed a little.. I don't know how he managed that..and I'm not going to ask..

2005-05-11T17:40:00.000-07:00

Music: Audrey - Dir en grey
Mood: Cold but happy

Well I went up to Seattle today. That was lots of fun. I got to play DDR with Meghan and Mizu, which is amazing because I NEVER see Meghan any more because of our crazy schedules. We all hung out at the McDonalds across the street from the EMP and then had to go back to the busses. People were fucking loud on the bus..and lots of people were trying to sleep which included me. >_O Mother fuckers..I had my cd player cranked up all the way blaring Gazette and I could still hear them. I HEARD THEM THROUGH THE $OCIAL RIOT MACHINE$!! HOW IS THAT POSSIBLE? O___o I even heard them through Kyo's screaming..that's too fucking loud man. Then I went over to Meghan's for a bit to watch the Ready Steady Go PV with her and an episode of Azumanga Diaoh..I probably spelled that completely wrong...yeah.. But it was fun ^__^ And we listend to Malice Mizer in her car..I want to steal that car from her.. Lovely Mustang.. Yeah...

Leeroy and I have to talk about what we're going to do on Friday. Gotta fine tune everything so I don't get in trouble.. I don't want my mum to have a fit.. heh ^_^;; That would be very bad..very, very bad.. Mostly because she's stressing enough and I don't want her coming after me.. Damn I'm just rambling on about nothing..

2005-05-10T15:34:00.000-07:00

Music: Sou Hide Sunset - Merii
Mood: Happy

So this is for the masses that have been wondering if Leeroy and I are technically going out or not, mostly for Saku, Saku's mum, and her aunt. YES we are. It's true. He asked me.. Now to sort of keep it under the wire cuz he's way older than I am..and I'm waaaay young... My nazi of a mother cannot find out under pain of death..or worse.. Heh..this'll surely be an adventure..

2005-05-08T18:59:00.000-07:00

Music: Nervous Breakdown Party - SID
Mood: Kinda tired

So I saw The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy today. That movie was..well..interesting.. XD I will say that I will never look at a towel the same way again..or dolphins the same way again.. I also went and bought new bras. Woo! XD ..Yeah..that's about all I have to write about.. O_o;; Don't have much else to say for now... I'm gonna go watch Hey!Hey!Hey! now...

2005-05-07T14:57:00.000-07:00

Music: Nothing
Mood: Tired

Well yesterday was interesting if I do say so myself. I took my ever-so-lovely AP US History test; my mind was fucking ruined after that. Then Leeroy came and picked me up after the test and took me out for coffee and a walk around the capital and Capital Lake, and then down to the huge new park by my house. He's a good boy ^__^ Then he took me back to school for the fashion show rehearsal. This is where it really started to get crazy. Cecil and I went to the mall to pick up some clothes for Staciey, and at the time we were short about 9 models or so. But when we got back we were still short like 5 of the 16 we had signed up and we ended up canceling the show. >__O NOT COOL DUDE. That angered me greatly.. So we stayed and ate food that was supposed to be for the after show party and just talked. So then Saku was like: "This fucking sucks yo, I wanna go party" so her, Michi, and I kinda BSed around at Saku's house, like everyone was questioning me about Leeroy and I ~_~, and waited for a call from this kid named Brandon who said that he knew where some party was going on. When we finally got the call it turned out that the fucking party was up in Tacoma and Michi didn't want to drive us up there. So instead we went and picked Gabe up, went and drove Michi's brother and his friends home, and then went to Sheri's for the rest of the night.

Saku and I found out this morning that there was a party that we all could have gone to last night.. Now I'm bitter..

So now I have to ask Leeroy if we are in fact: "boyfriend and girlfriend", mostly for Saku, her aunt and her mum's sake because the were like: "How can you sorta be his boyfriend? Did he ask to be his girlfriend?" But at least they thought it was cute.. Heh..

2005-05-04T20:00:00.000-07:00

______General______
001) How did you discover JRock? It's a combination of two things really.. anime (I really REALLY loved Do As Infinity) and then my friend Saku got me into it more because she discovered Gackt online.
002) When did you discover JRock? Technically in 2003 but I really became an official Jrock fan this in 2004
003) So how long have you been a fan then? About a year or so..
004) Are you a fan of Visual Kei? HELL YES
005) Are you a fan of JPop? Depends on the person really..but for the most part no.
006) Are you a fan of fanservice? I perform my own fanservice..does that tell you anything?

______Firsts______
007) First solo artist you heard? Gackt. It was heaven...
008) First band/group you heard? Dir en grey. LOOOOOVE
009) First JRock crush? Kaoru *blush* I just thought Gackt was hella sexy..didn't have a crush on him...
010) First JRocker to scare you? Kyo..I saw a picture of him spitting up some crap and he had freaky make up..but now I love the little bugger XD
011) First JRocker you mistook for a woman? Mana .__.
012) First yaoi pairing you saw? Gackt/Hyde
013) First yaoi pairing you became a fan of? Haha I love it alllll
014) First Asian Kung-Fu Generation song? Loop and Loop! ^__^
015) First B'z song? Haha..haven't listened to that band before..
016) First baroque song? Only seen pics of them...
017) First BLOOD song? I forget...
018) First Buck-Tick song? Non
019) First Deadman song? ...
020) First D'espairsRay song? Reddish
021) First Dir en grey song? Child Prey. I LOVED IT
022) First Due'le Quartz song? ...I forget which one I heard first...
023) First Duel Jewel song? Anmaku
024) First Gackt song? VANILLA! <333
025) First Gazette song? Tokyo Shinjuu
026) First GLAY song? I downloaded some PV..don't know what it was..
027) First hide song? Pinku Spidah!
028) First Hyde song? Evergreen
029) First Iceman song? Never heard them..
030) First J song? ...
031) First Janne da Arc song? Kasumi yuki something shite.. I can never spell it..
032) First Kagerou song? Haven't downloaded any of their stuff before...
033) First Kagrra song? Rin
034) First L'Arc~en~Ciel song? Ready Steady Go
035) First La'Cryma Christi song? Psycho Stalker
036) First Lareine song? Er...
037) First Luna Sea song? *cough*
038) First Malice Mizer song? Er..I forget.. Beast of Blood I think..
039) First Merry song? Tokyo Telephone I think it's called..It got mashed in my brain with all the other Merry song's I've listened too.. O_o;;
040) First Miyavi song? Pop is Dead
041) First Moi dix Mois song? I don't remember...
042) First MUCC song? Bouzenshijitsu. I think that's how you spell it XD
043) First Nightmare song? Ah crap.. Vanura? Sp?
044) First PENICILLIN song? .__.
045) First Pierrot song? Um, Neogrotesque!
046) First Plastic Tree song? Melancholic
047) First Psycho le Cemu song? Gekiai Merry Go Round!
048) First Raphael song? Some song I downloaded the PV too...
049) First SADS song? I still have to download some of their stuff!
050) First Schwarz Stein song? Corred Cage
051) First SHAZNA song? Pssh.. fucking Izam..
052) First Shiina Ringo song? Never listened to her stuff..
053) First Siam Shade song? ...
054) First Sugizo song? I've seen pictures of him XD
055) First Tetsu69 song? Some song that Guy had me listen to over the phone when I still talked to him...
056) First TRANSTIC NERVE song? Who the hell is that? O__o
057) First X Japan song? Silent Jealousy

______Favorites______
058) Favorite band? Dir en grey, always and forever
059) Favorite band musically? Oooh that's hard.. Probably Diru..
060) Favorite band physically (eye-candy)? Nightmare probably. All of them are fucking sexy XD
061) Favorite Indies band? I really like Gazette..and Plastic Tree..and tons of others..
062) Favorite JRocker? >_O Don't make me choooose!
063) Favorite vocalist? Kyo is god..but Gackt has an amazing voice as well..
064) Favorite guitarist? Die is a fucking awesome guitarist... He's better than my Kao T__T YES SAKU THERE I SAID IT!
065) Favorite bassist? Toshiya. Can any of you say bad ass Cage bass solo?!
067) Favorite pianist/keyboardist? Yoshiki. Hands down.
068) Favorite song? Oh god.. ~__~
069) Favorite PV? That un-aired version of Yuuyami Suicide moved it's way to the top I think XD
070) Favorite Live? Vanilla live..so much fanservice.. @___@
071) Favorite clip (behind the scenes, candid, etc)? Kyo with the cat, Totchi breaking the ping pong paddle, Tatsurou needing his drugs, Shinya and his bloody apples.. I can go on forever..
072) Favorite Gackt commercial? Feel the Fire XD Gackt earned mucho cool points for that..
073) Favorite couple? >_O so many choices..

______This Or That?______
074) Skirt or pants? Hmmm.. Pant's I guess..
075) Mana or Izam? Mana. I fucking hate Izam >_O
076) Kyo or Tatsurou? Awww! I love them both! T__T
077) Gackt or Miyavi? I dunno.. I like Meevs cuz he's such a weird ass that and he'd be more fun to hang out with..
078) Taiji or Heath? I know Heath's from X Japan..but who's the other one?
079) J or Sugizo? Sugizo I suppose
080) Yoshiki: Long hair or short? Short cuz it's sexy! XD
081) Ken: Facial hair or none? Facial hair!
082) Aya: Boy or girl? >_O sometimes I dunno man..
083) Kirito: Gay or straight? Gay for Mizu's sake!
084) Daisuke: Make-up or none? The guy from Kagerou?
085) hide: Dead or alive? Dead sadly T__T But he lives on in his music... *semi-sappy*
086) Gackt x Hyde or Hyde x Gackt? GacktxHyde. Gackt totally dominates..

______Which JRocker Is Most...______
087) Adorable? Yomi! ^o^
088) Annoying? Izam I suppose..
089) Attractive? Kaoru.. *drools* gotta be true to my man...
090) Bishi? Toshiya..and he knows it dammit
091) Childish? Yukke092) Cute? Kai!
093) Disturbing? Kyo XD
094) Dorky? Taka..and he has to share the same name as me.. -_- Oh and the drummer from Orange Range is too!
095) Edible? Sakito
096) Feminine? Totchi..have you seen him backstage? O__O
097) Frightening? Tatsurou..
098) Gay? Kirito again for Mizu!
099) Masculine? Miya
100) Otaku? I dunno.. Die, Totchi, and Kao like anime..
101) Reserved? Shinya
102) Sex-able? Uruha
103) Talented? God they all are aren't they?
104) Zealous? Gackt

____First JRocker That Comes To Mind______
105) Abs: Gackt
106) Alcohol: Die
107) Alien: Aya O__O
108) Ass: Kaoru! XD
109) Bondage: Die...
110) Chicken: Yukke.. O_o;;
111) Dictator: Mana...
112) Engrish: Kyo and Hyde!
113) Food: Kai.. O___O
114) Goth: Mana..again..
115) Hentai: RUKA!! XD
116) Hump: Yomi..
117) Kimono: Nao
118) Kinky: Kirito..for some reason..
119) Leather: Gackt pantz!
120) Moon: Gackt.. O__o;; really repetitive, ne?
121) Piercing: Hitsugi
122) Platforms: ..Mana..
123) Sex: Totchi
124) Smoking: Niya. I guess he smokes like crazy..
125) Vanilla: Gackt and Masa!
126) Visual: er..can I just say a band?

______Place A JRocker______
127) America: Yoshiki
128) China: Shinya O__o
129) France: Mana
130) Hawaii: Chacha. "COME AND LOOK AT THIS VIEW!!" "NOOO *fears heigts*"
131) Hospital: Kao T__T food poisoning from Totchi
132) Japan: ..all of them..
133) Los Angeles: Yoshiki again
134) Mars: Aya O__O
135) McDonald's: Miyavi
136) Merry-go-Round: Seek..
137) Movie Theater: ...
138) Okinawa: I forget! >_<
139) Pet Store: Gackt
140) Pharmacy: Kyo O__O
141) Supermarket: Gackt
142) Sushi Bar: ...
143) The North Pole: All of them! XD

______Who's Most Likely...______
144) To get the stuffing beat out of them? Totchi for being a dumb ass and breaking another ping pong paddle
145) To get kidnapped? Yomi, by Ruka
146) To have kids? Shinya!
147) To eat kids? Mana o___o
148) An actual woman? Izam..
149) An evil spy? Miya! XD
150) A government agent? Yura-SAMA just cuz it's funny
151) An alien? Aya
152) American? Psycho le Cemu..they've played here waaaay too much for their own good
153) To rule Japan? DIRU!
154) To rule the world? Gackt -_-;;
155) To go bald? XD KYO!
156) To get braces? Totchi! For the love of god please get them!
157) To go into retirement first? Yomi... I dunno why..

______What Would You Do If...______
158) Gackt quit writing music? I'd be dissapointed
159) Toshiya got braces? THANK GOD!! T__T
160) Yoshiki went bald? Hehe..it'd be funny
161) Klaha bleached his hair? O__o that'd just be weird..
162) Mana became Japan's next Prime Minister? I don't know...I'd fear..
163) hide appeared in your room? Probably have a shit fit because a Jrocker was in my room..even if he is dead..
164) Koshi stopped singing? ..I dunno who that is..
165) Jiro sat on you? I'd be like: "O__o;; WTF, yo?"
166) Miyavi bit you? Smack him in the head and then feel bad..
167) Yasu spanked you? ..Who?
168) Hyde glomped you? I'd squeal
169) Sugizo mooned you? Wonder who the hell gave him the crack..
170) Yukke poked you? I'd stare and start making Tatsurou off his drugs noises..
171) Sakura offered you a joint? I’d be like: "Dude..where'd you get that? O__O"
172) Izumi could kick Jet Li's ass? YES! XD
173) They made a Psycho le Cemu anime? I'd probably see how it was...I'd watch it just for Yura-SAMA
174) Akira [baroque] became your new classmate/co-worker? I dunno who that is but it'd be cool lol
175) Kozi poked you in the eye? I'd have a fit and then glare at him..but I wouldn't touch him because I love Kozi too much..
176) Hakuei gave you a lapdance? Who's that?
177) Kirito was your roommate? XD That'd be fucking aweseome!!
178) seek wanted to take a stroll through your neighborhood? O___O Umm.. he'd get weird looks from crazy neighbor lady..
179) Levin started speaking Spanish? ...I'd speak it back?
180) Hisashi decided to wear a mohawk? ..I forget where he's from...
181) Kyo did parapara? *shudders*
182) Chachamaru cut his hair? NOOO! T__T
183) Toshi left his cult? Ramtha?! Is it that one!? O__O
184) Sakito assassinated the Emperor of Japan? Shit yo..I'd hide him in my house..my intentions would be pure.. >_>;;
185) Ryou popped out of your closet? I'd be like: "Isn't there too much crap in there for a person to fit in there?"
186) Takuro picked his nose during an interview? ..I dunno who that is..

______Songs______
187) First JRock song you ever heard? Fukai Mori by Do As Infinity
188) Song that best captures JRock? Ani pop by Gazette
189) Song best performed live? Child Prey by Diru
190) Song that turns you on? Vanilla by Gackt XD
191) Sappiest? I dunno..
192) Happiest? Feeling Fine - Larku
193) Saddest? Embryo - Diru
194) Best for head-banging? Social Riot Machines - Gazette
195) Best for dancing? Vanilla - Gackt
196) Best for driving? Ready Steady Go - Larku
197) Best for summer? Summer Days - Do As Infinity
198) Best for winter? Seki Ray - Gackt
199) Best for Halloween? O__o
200) Best for Christmas? That one by Nightmare! >< The Reindeer song!
201) Best party song? ...
202) Makes you hungry? Mazohyst of Decadence - Diru
203) Makes you sleepy? Illness Illusion - Gackt
204) Makes you angry? Bozenshijitsu - MUCC
205) Makes you hyper? Syuunikiss - Malice Mizer
206) Makes you think of snow? Seki Ray - Gackt
207) Makes you think of flowers? Rin - Kagrra,
208) Makes you think of vampires? Beast of Blood - Malice Mizer
209) Makes you think of the moon? Orenji no Taiyou - Gackt and Hyde
210) Makes you think of water? Kasumi - Diru
211) Makes you think of rain? Hana Kotoba - Gazette
212) Song you'd like played at your wedding? Emu for my Dear - Gackt
213) Song you'd like played at your funeral? Saraba - Gazette
214) Song that would go best in a movie? [KR] Cube - Diru
215) Song that would go best in an anime? Ready Steady Go - Larku cuz it is..
216) Song that would go best in a video game? I dunno
217) Best intro? Anti pop - Gazette
218) Best ending? >_O yar..
219) Best guitar solo? Raison D'etre - Diru
220) Best bass line? Melancholic - Plastic Tree
221) Best acoustic guitar work? Akuro no Oka - Diru
222) Best piano work? Regret - Malice Mizer
223) Best drum work? Umbrella - Diru
224) Best vocals? Anything by Kyo
225) Best written? Song? O__o

______What Would You Do/Say if You Met...______
263) B'z: Koshi? ..dunno who that is..
264) B'z: Tak? ...
266) baroque: Kei? -_-
267) baroque: Akira? Nope..
268) baroque: Bansaku? ..nada..
269) Dir en grey: Kaoru? I'd try not to jump on him and molest the hell out of him >_<
270) Dir en grey: Die? "Oi, you wanna go get a beer?" XD
271) Dir en grey: Toshiya? I'd ask to play ping pong with him
272) Dir en grey: Shinya? Ask if I can see Miyu...
273) Dir en grey: Kyo? Stare at him
274) Due'le Quartz: Ask to see some Sakito/Miyabi action XD
275) Miyavi? I'd want to follow his weird ass self around...

2005-05-04T18:16:00.000-07:00

Music: Pink Cherry - PANIC*ch
Mood: Blegh...

This is the first time I've heard anything by PANIC*ch.. I think they're rather good if I do say so myself. ^__^ I think I'll download more of their stuff..and some more Pierrot because I'm really getting into that band for some reason... I heart Aiji and Kirito! ^o^

So it's been determinted, Leeroy and I are going out again on Friday after my AP test. He told me he might not be able to make it to the fashion show on Friday so he could take me out again so we're doing that instead. So that should be fun! ^__^

It's been crazy around here lately.. My sister's being an ultimate bitch and is slamming doors and shit and just being an ass. It's really pissing me off..I want her to go to live with my dad so I don't have to mess with her shit anymore. RAWR!

2005-05-03T15:00:00.000-07:00

Music: Kasumi - Dir en grey
Mood: Tired

-__- Today was such a long day.. I was so tired the whole time..and the fact that Weston gave us a fucking AP test today didn't help any. Freaking 80 multi-choice questions to do..took the whole class period. YAR.

I need to freaking remember to go and register for my SPS classes tomorrow. I keep on forgetting >_< Bad stuff man! I just have to look up that one class that Saku's in because I forget all the stuff for it..including the name of the class..heh..

2005-05-02T18:31:00.000-07:00

Music: Yuuyami Suicide - Pierrot
Mood: Excited

OMG! I just came back from my dress fitting. My dress is a really pretty shade of blue and really showes off my back, which Cecil said looked really sexy XD I love it..it gives me boobs and a better figure.. >_>;; Yes..and I'm really wondering if I can wear my spiffy Converse under it or not..but I might get yelled at.. Speaking of the show I wonder where Saku and I are going to sit and do some actual hosting..and I need to remember people's names...that's going to be a bitch for me to do.. Like all of Friday I'll be like: "O___O what's your name again? *writes it on hand* Ok thanks! ^__^;;"

2005-05-02T15:32:00.000-07:00

Music: Relia - Gazette
Mood: Bored

Today I had my AP Lit test. FUCKING SUCKED ASS YO!! >_O RAWR! I sat next to Olivia and we were both like: "Dude..this freaking sucks..and my essays were crap.." Then afterwards Sunny and were talking and we were like: "I HAD NO IDEA WHAT WAS GOING ON!! I DIED! T___T" But I had a great time before the test and afterwards. Before we had to take it Mizu took Nathan and I to Denny's where we met up with Pascal and had breakfast ^o^ It was yummy. And then afterwards I went with them to drop off Nathan at his house, I suppose Leeroy couldn't find the testing place because he said he'd try and get there to meet me there XD. Then we took Pascal and went and picked up Bunni and terrorized my sister (the little fucker was skipping school >_O) and then we went to the Capital to run around and Mizu and I showed off our uber cool Page skills by not getting us lost and knowing a crap load about the capital. Then we headed down to Olympia Cards and Comics for a bit and then we dropped Pascal off at his house and then Bunni and Mizu came home with me for a bit while I did my chores. Now I just have to wait for Cecil to come and pick me up so we can go and pick out our dresses for the fashion show on Friday. ^__^ That'll be loads of fun! Maybe I'll be lucky and someone will get on before then and I can chat with someone.. Because now I'm bored and lonely .__. Yes pitty me...

Yuck I have to go to school tomorrow! Woe is me!

2005-05-01T10:31:00.000-07:00

Music: J'ai Deux Amours - Madeleine Peyroux
Mood: Kinda tired kinda not...

Oh my goodness! Look a song in French today! XD Wow that's a first, ne?

So anyway back to what I was going to post about in the first place: me going out with Leeroy last night. I actually had a pretty good time O_o;; He came to my house and picked me up and then we had to head over to his sister's house because he had to let her dog out for her (she's out of town or something..I don't really remember..) and I got to see the "secret project car" that's in her her garage. I really liked that car >_>. Then we headed to Red Robin, the whole while playing "try and stump Taka by making her guess what Jpop group/person is playing or what anime the song is from". I kicked ass man..totally. When we finally got to Red Robin we discovered that some crappy high school was having prom so there were a million people running around in tuxes and dresses..that made us wait like 20 minutes for our food, but we went and BSed around Mervyns for a while cuz it was close. After dinner we went to the mall where I went and bought my white shoes from Hot Topic, (~_~ I couldn't stand it anymore so I splurged *is crappy on a date* but if it's any conselation he almost bought like three video games..) Then we left the mall because it was close to closing time, after dinking around Best Buy for a bit, and then we went down to Capital Lake and sat down by the water. There was something big in the water yo.. O_O;; It wasn't a duck..so we decided it was an otter or something. But it was making freaky squeaking noises and kept splashing around... We talked a lot about tons of stuff, mostly about our age difference and what we were going to do about that.. And then we cuddled because it was freaking COLD down by the water until a cop came and busted us because it was almost 11 and the park closes at dusk.. Haha we were so crappy it was amazing. After that we went out for ice cream and then went and stayed at the park across the street from my house, cuddling more and talking about past relationships and random crap some more. Then at one in the morning he took me home, haha yes across the park, and then I went inside and accidently woke my mum up who thought that I was spending the night at I guess Michi's house or something.. But she didn't really care about the time I got home..which is the one good thing about my mum..I have like no curfew at all.. I don't know how she got that idea but it was funny none the less. So I suppose that him and I BSed though the date pretty well. And I guess he's coming to the fashion show on Friday night because I was talking about it. Yeah..so that's it basically.. ^__^;;

2005-05-01T01:18:00.000-07:00

Music: Nothing at all..
Mood: Tired...

Tonight I went out with Leeroy. I'll have to finish the story in the morning because I'm to tired to tell it at the moment.. Gomen nasai minna....

2005-04-29T18:22:00.000-07:00

Music: Pink Spider - hide
Mood: Full

Ugh..I ate only two fajitas and I'm completely stuffed. I should have only eaten one because now I feel kinda sick. ~_~ Yay for not eating all day and then eating a lot and killing yourself.

Today was the fashion show preview at school. I was having a fit all during lunch because I couldn't find a way to get to Saku's house to get ready for the preview. So I spent all day running around asking for rides and stuff. But finally Mizu said she could take me during her lunch, which she did. THANK YOU WOOD I LOVE YOU FOREVER T____T LOOOOOVE... But then once we got back to school it was crazy because Bonnie couldn't do the preview because she had to go with all the kids who were in the play and we had to find a temporary replacement, which we did THANK GOD. And then we were running around the girl's locker room putting stuff together and getting dressed and stuff..crazy stuff yo. I'm glad I don't have to hang around back stage like at all during the actual show because I would die. But we got it done..and I wore huge ass shoes that made me like 6'2". O___O I was scared to walk...

So yeah..tomorrow's the day.. >_>;; Gonna be crazy man.. Saku told me today that I should marry her cousin so I could become a Pasion.. Yeah.. Then she said it'd be cooler if I married Jon instead because then like her two favorite people would be together ^__^;; Yeah..

2005-04-28T14:59:00.000-07:00

Music: Yuuyami Suicide - Pierrot
Mood: YAR! XD

Damn..I can't get enough of this song.. I need to buy a Pierrot cd sometime.. >_O I have the money.. I just need to get up to Uwajimaya's so I can buy it from the book store. And my hide cd that I've been meaning to get for like ever and a day...

*random shit fit* O____O I'm crazy I know.. My Phong told me so this morning like five times XD

2005-04-28T06:48:00.000-07:00

Music: Mado - Merii
Mood: Blegh

Uck.. I hate getting an upset stomach in the morning. ~_~ I hate food sometimes..but only at times like this when it makes me feel sick..

Sooo..last night was interesting.. Saku totally set me up with her cousin Leeroy. It was amazing to say the least... So pretty much Leeroy and I are on for Saturday night. And I even had a weird ass dream about it...Meyers was in it.. O_o;; WTF, yo? That worries me..

2005-04-24T19:05:00.000-07:00

Music: Smiley Skeleton PV - Pierrot
Mood: Full

Wow.. Kung Fu Hussle was crazy.. O_o;; I wanna go and see it again, mostly because we were a bit late getting to the movie theater, ARGH. But it was still awesome! I love the landlady..and the guy who's pants were halfway down the whole time in the movie. Freaking hilarious XD.

I don't wanna go back to school tomorrow... I have to sit through AP US for two hours tomorrow. >_O Haha..yay.. It's going to be death.. DEATH.

2005-04-24T12:30:00.000-07:00

Music: Yuuyami Suicide - Peirrot
Mood: Happy

Yay I get to see the movie Kung Fu Hussle today! ^__^ So happy..it's gonna rock. But for the time being I'm installing Norton SystemWorks. I hate installing crap..it always takes so long... And now I have to restart the computer...

Haha wow that took forever... And now I have to run a bloody virus scan. Horray? ..yeah.. I gotta watch the Smiley Skeleton PV that I downloaded last night..and I have to email Orand Yuuyami Suicide...cuz I said I would.. And I also have to find a new wallpaper for my computer..I'm tired of looking at these crappy tulips.. Maybe a Gazette one? I dunno..I'll have to look around and see what I want..

My mum also told me yesterday like out of the blue that she wanted Saku to spend the night at our house so that she could "get to know her better". Mostly because I flat out asked her why she hated Saku and she said that she didn't hate her, she just didn't trust her. -_- So I'll have to talk to Saku about that.. It should be interesting though..and I'm pretty sure that my sister'll have a shit fit when she finds out that Saku's gonna spend the night. But that just means that Saku and I can terrorize the little onna. Haha, I'm such a wonderful sister..I should get a cookie.. So if Saku plays her cards right she might be put on the good list with Mizu and Orand (Sad how there's practically a list that my mum has for the "good friends I should always hang out with". It makes me feel bad for my friends...)

2005-04-23T08:56:00.000-07:00

Music: Merii - Mado
Mood: Sleepy

Haha..I just woke up from a long night at Arts Walk downtown last night. It was lots of fun though..just tons of people..

I found out yesterday, from Saku, that the whole Japan thing isn't gonna work out. Michi's gotta start college at the end of August so she's not going and that means I can't go T_T Damn. That really sucks. But at least my dad'll be happy about not having to pay for a trip overseas. And besides I'll be in Japan in a few years anyways. And I don't have to worry about missing lots of swim stuff too..or any school for that matter. Speaking of school I went in today to sign up for my Running Start classes for next year and Mrs. LaBuda was like: "Come back next week.." -_- Mer, I wanna do this now... At least now I can see what Saku's classes are so that we can take stuff together! XD Like Nihongo. ^__^ Yes..next year will be an adventure...

2005-04-20T19:49:00.000-07:00

Music: Chibaizumu~te nugui wa nuga sanaite~ - Sendai Kamotsu
Mood: Bored

Haha..I just downloaded this song by Sendai Kamotsu.. That band is freaking amazing.. I need to send myself Samba Carry On (I think that's the name of that one other Sendai song I have..). I'm in the proccess of getting Merii's new single they released. I didn't even know that they had released a new one..but now I'm getting it because I want to XD.

I talked to my dad about me going to Japan with Michi over the summer. He's gonna pay for some of it! ^o^ HUZZAH! And he's gonna let me work for him this summer so that I can help pay for it too.. I'll probably just follow him around and be his "assistan" or something. Or maybe I'll babysit for Shannon again and get paid to do that. Now all I have to do is get more info from Michi and convince Saku's parents into letting her go with us. ^__^

2005-04-19T20:38:00.000-07:00

Music: Some crazy guy on tv.. O_o;;
Mood: Full

So I took my placement test for Running Start at SPS tonight. Here are my scores on all the parts that I took:

Reading Comprehension: 95 (mwahaha take that fucking test!)
Sentence Skills: 106 (*is even more proud and ego goes up)
Arithmetic: 83 (I was happy to pass this part.. -_-)
Elementary Algebra: 53 (haha I blame My Phong! :P)

So I got into the program but I might take the math part over again.. Hmmm.. But afterwards mum and I got into an argument over Running Start and college AGAIN. -_- Dammit..she doesn't "understand Running Start". So now I'm angry about college again..and frustrated.. God dammit..

2005-04-19T15:24:00.000-07:00

Stole this from Kayla's LiveJournal...

1.First grade teacher's name: Mrs. Komenda
2. Last person you kissed: XD Saku
3. Last words you said: "O_o Damn that pheasant's worth a lot!"
4. Last song you sang: Reila by Gazette
5. Last person you hugged: Saku
6. Last thing you really laughed at: Me being stupid...
8. What's in your CD player: Gazette's Disorder CD
9. What socks are you wearing: I have one white with grey writing and one white with black writing XD
10. What's under your bed: Papers and junk...
11. Current hair style: In a ponytail...
12. Current clothes: Grey jacket, black shirt, jeans.
13. Current Job: Professional Genius
14. Current longing: Soda... I fucking need some...
15. Current desktop picture: Flowers... I haven't changed it to Jrock yet...
16. Current worry: That I won't ever finish my math homework...
17. Meaning of your username: Well this one I one that Saku gave me..it was original Takai (tall in Japanese) but it was kinda strange to say so she shortened it to Taka (which turns out to be hawk in Japanese -_-)
19. Favorite physical feature(s) of the opposite sex: Hair, eyes..kinda the face in general.. O_o;;
20. Last CD that you bought: Duel Jewel's Lapidary CD
21. Favorite place to be: ...some place where there's pretty Asian boys to look at...*cough*
22. If you could play a new instrument, what would it be: Drums just cuz it'd be interesting to see me play them...
23. Current favorite word/saying: That's amazing and wow...
24. Favorite book: Hokkaido Popsicle
25. Favorite Movies: Moon Child. I cried and I never cry! T__T
26. Favorite Songs: I have too many...
27. One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: Keanie
28. Favorite day: Friday!
29. Where do you want to go: Japan
30. What is your career going to be: Jrocker
31. What kind of car(s) do you have?: Haha..that's a funny joke...
32. A random lyric: Please smile, Mother you grin so wide it seems as if your mouth is about to rip.. ~_~ I blame Kayla for that...
33. Eye Color: Brown
34. Hair Color: Dark brown now
35. Righty or Lefty: Righty!
36. Zodiac Sign: Leo/Virgo cusp bitches! XD
37. Innie or Outtie: Innie

DESCRIBE...
38. Your heritage: English, Spanish, German, Norwegian, Welsh, French... O_o;; But I'm not all white!! XD
39. The shoes you wore today: Black and red Converse
40. Your hair: Tied up in a ponytail at the back of my head...
41. Your weakness: Tosh/Korean Nick and food in general
42. Your fears: Spiders ><
43. Your most recent secret: Haha...I don't have any currently..
44. Your thoughts first waking up: Mother Fucker!! >< Fucking 6:30 and I'm late!
45. The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: Hair
46. Your bedtime: Anywhere between 9 and 10:30...
47. Your most missed companion: Saku, Mizu, and Kayla
48. Your perfect pizza: Combo! No corn for me...
49. Sweet and Chewy or Salty and Crunchy: Sweet and crunchy
50. Single or group dates: Single
51. Dogs or Cats: Dogs..I love doggies.. ^__^
52. Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: ..Bubble tea?
53. Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate!
54. Cappuccino or Drip: Cappuccino
55. Smoke: That one time at college with Saku..I almost burned her with the cigg right in front of Tosh.. -_-;;
56. Swear: Fuck yeah!
57. Take a shower everyday: Or a bath..which ever...
58. Have a crush: Yes
59. Think you've been in love: No...
60. Want to go to college: Duh I do
61. Want more than what you've got: Pssh who doesn't?
62. Want to get married: For the most part yes I do
63. Type w/ your left fingers on the right keys: Yeah
64. Think you're a health freak: No but my mom is..so in a way I sorta am because I don't get much other stuff at home...
65. Play an instrument: Electric Guitar..but I'm not all that great still.. ^__^;;
66. Clear Mailing Tape: ..sure?
67. Drink: Um..I dunno..alcoholic or non?
68. Smoke: ..wasn't this on here before?
69. Done a drug: No. Only the kind doctors prescribe to you..taken LOTS of those..
70. Made Out: XD
71. Go on a date: Go on a date? That sentence is kinda confusing..
74. Been dumped: No..wasn't allowed to start dating until this year..
75. Made homemade cookies: Yep!
76. Been in love: Once again I thought this was on here before..
77. Gone skinny dipping: Nope..wanted to though.. >_>;;
78. Dyed your hair: Yeah..black this year.
79. Stolen anything: Yeah..food from the college.. ><

HAVE YOU EVER..
80. Had too much to drink: Nope
81. Been caught cheating: ..er..I don't remember...
82. Been called a tease: ...Can't remember once again..
83. Gotten beaten up: Not by a bully or anything..by my friends...
84. Changed who you were to fit in: ..I don't think so..
85. Cried at something beautiful: Yes ._.
86. Spent too much money on something you didn't need: I don't get a lot of money to spend
87. Cried when someone died: Yes..my Grandma Ruth.. T_T

2005-04-18T19:53:00.000-07:00

Music: Reila - Gazette
Mood: Tired

Mer..my foot's asleep. I hate that tingly feeling. It hurts.. T_T

Anywho, I can't believe about the Japan thing... It's really sorta true now.. O_O But my mum did tell me that: "You need to help out with the cost also" God dammit.. So she's said to talk to my dad about getting a job from him this summer so that I can "help pay". Mother fucker.. Well I should have known that something like this would come up. Speaking of talking to my dad about money stuff I should call him and let him know about these plans..but I need to get info from Michi's dad first. Which hopefully will be in a couple of days. I also need to apply for my passport soon too because they've changed the regulations for that stuff so it's gonna take longer to go through and for me to get it back. But I'll wait until I talk more about everything..

Tomorrow I get to go and take my Placement test for Running Start. XD I get to hang out at SPS with Saku for a bit before I take my test and stuff. I'm actually looking forward to taking this..mostly because this means that I'm finally going through with this Running Start thing. I can't wait until next year. It's gonna fucking rock. But it makes me think about college stuff a lot more.. I can't help but be nervous about it.. I actually talked to Saku about it the other day. It felt good to do that because I haven't really talked about it with her, which wasn't really such a good thing because we plan on going to the same college together and stuff. Pretty important, duh. But yeah.. ~_~ Talk about WHOA.

2005-04-17T17:25:00.000-07:00

Music: The tv
Mood: Headache

Well today I learned something good. I talked to my mum about going to Japan with Michi over the summer, yes I did talk to my mum but it was the first time all day haha. And she was actually really interested in it and told me to ask my dad about helping to pay for some of the cost of going over there. So now I just have to talk to Michi some more about estimates for the trip and then tell her and my dad about it. I'm so freaking excited..it would be amazing to get to go to Japan.. She's just worried about me going over there with only Michi's dad.. I think she thinks I'm gonna be crazy over there with everyone..which she has good reason to think XD. I just hope that it doesn't talk long to get my passport, that is if all things are go with my dad and stuff..

Tomorrow I have to go to school...I really, really don't want to go back to school. I didn't do my homework for AP Lit.. Ah shit I have to finish my math too..well I can do that during fourth.

Shit, yo. Dinner needs to be ready..I'm freaking hungy..I haven't eaten like all day and it sucks... Probably part of the reason why my head hurts..

2005-04-16T18:31:00.000-07:00

Music: Nothing
Mood: @_+ RAWR BICHES!

I fucking hate my mom sometimes..ok like a lot of the time. She freaking pulls stuff out of her ass and says that she said it when in fact she didn't..fucking crazy as hell.. So Saku and I went to the mall today and I had to call my mum to ask her if I could go and my mum said, I fucking swear that she said this: "Ok, but I want you home by dinner time so that I can get a chance to eat dinner with you." And I was like, ok I can do that. So I told Saku and we went to the mall and hung out and then ended up coming back to her house at like 4:20 and we were like: "Hey we have a bit more time before you have to be home" so we started watching Wayne's World. At about 5:15 I decided that I should start heading home, and I had to walk because Saku's parents were sleeping and I didn't really care. I walked in the door at home at about 5:35 and my mum had a fit. She went off on how "this always happens when you go over to her house" and I was like WTF WOMAN? So then I flat out asked her why shed hated Saku so much and my mum was like: "I don't hate her I just don't trust her". Jesus Christ, just stab a knife in my chest woman. That's the one thing that REALLY pissed me off. >_O I almost had a fucking shit fit in the middle of my kitchen when she said that. So now I'm super pissed off at her and will probably try and spend the night over at Saku's house as much as possible to piss her off..or maybe I should just have Saku spend the night over her to spite the woman more. I fucking want to leave this house..it's not even funny...

2005-04-15T16:07:00.000-07:00

Music: RED BEAST wo Korose! - Duel Jewel
Mood: A little irked..

Well it only took my sister another three hours to get her ass off the computer..she just sits online, on Gaia, trying to increase her gold. It's fucking annoying. I was actually trying to get something constructive done (namely calling Saku back and emailing Jen the Page back). But I can't complain cuz I have the computer now XD

I really hope my mum lets me spend the night at Saku's tonight..again. Maybe I'll be safe and say I'm going to Michi's for the night and that we're going to the mall tomorrow..which is what Saku and I are going to do. Decked out in Jrock style with cool hair and makeup. It'll be great. It's kinda funny how much I've been looking forward to that.. Woot! Jrock! But I really want to go eat out a Sharie's tonight..Gabe so owes us all.. XD PIE AND MILKSHAKE HERE I COME!!! ^o^ Yummy!

God I love this Duel Jewel CD.. I dunno why but I just really like it.. O_o;; But Shun and Hayato are wonderful.. Here I'll even put a picture of them! ^o^ ...Or maybe I won't because I can't get the really good picture off the site... -_- But here's a link to see the picture anyways..
Duel Jewel Official Site! (the order for the guys, left to right, goes as follows: Baru (drums), Yuya (guitar), Hayato (vocals), Natsuki (bass), and Shun (guitar). ^__^ Tada! Yes..I am a dork..

2005-04-15T11:34:00.000-07:00

Music: Reila clip off Gazette's website
Mood: Cold

Well I got board and changed my blogskin again. I did it a lot faster this time than ever before...that's not really a good sign because that means I spend waaaaaaay to much of my spare time mucking with this thing.. -_-;;

This week had been a blast. I was out with Saku and Michi like the whole time. And we hung out with Gabe a lot too. It was great XD. Possibly the two craziest nights were when Saku and and I got a bunch of middle schoolers to go and egg stuff with us. We were like: "Here take and egg and go throw it at something..*shoves egg in their hands*" We egged a dog! XD Hard core man... And the other craziest night was when we went to Sheries with Gabe and Michi and we stayed there until like 1 in the morning drinking coffee. Then we went back to Gabe's house and talked for another three hours.. Gabe gave me some of his Jager to drink. @_@ Let's just say for someone who has like never drank much to begin with and who has only had coffee in her belly shouldn't drink alcohol. It messed with my stomach..and made me kinda tipsy..but not much because I only had a bit..

I dunno what's going on today... Maybe Saku'll call me or something... Yeah...

2005-04-10T08:05:00.000-07:00

Music: Ruder - Gazette
Mood: Awake

O___O Wow.. I slept a lot last night. I went to bed at like 9 and then woke up like five minutes ago.. Yum..seven hours of sleep... And listening to Gazette in the morning really wakes you up. I've been on a Gazette trip ever since yestreday because at the JpopHouse booth they had like three DVD players going with live concert footage and PVs of bands like MUCC, Gazette, Gackt, and tons of others (which were sadly often over run by the booth across from them who had some really annoying girl singing in her high Jpop nasal voice..even Harry commented about it and it was mean: "They need to turn their crap down because it's drowing out our real music over here.." XD) So while I was standing there the Zakuro Kata no Yuutsu PV comes on and I was like: "^o^ Gazette! *glances around for Gazette CDs, sees none* Um.. Do you have any thing by Gazette?"
Harry: *glances down at the table full of CDs* No.. We're all sold out. But we have AliceNine and Miyavi who are also under the PS lable.
Me: *knows they're under the same record lable along with the band Kra* Oh...ok. Thank you! *keeps looking to oogle at Harry*
Haha..yes I know.. I swear this is the last story about me standing at the JpopHouse booth...

I wonder what I'm going to do today since my dad can't come and pick us up. Poor guy..I hope he feels better. But I know that today I get the film for our cosplay pictures today! ^__^ Mizu's gonna drop them off! Woot! Then it's off to get it developed and put on one of those spiffy disk things so I can email them to everyone.

2005-04-09T20:02:00.000-07:00

Music: Zakuro kata no yuutsu - Gazette
Mood: Kinda Tired

Oh my god... Today was crazy. I went up to SeaTac to go to Sakura Con with Mizu and Jen. We had to wake up at 4:30 in the morning so that we could do my hair for my cosplay. ~_~ Fucking hair gave us hell.. We didn't really have any clue what the hell we were doing and because of that I kinda got burned by hot sizzling gel. That hurt quite a bit.. >_O UNDERSTATEMENT... But anywho by about 5:30 we had gotten my hair to stand up and out as much as we could, which we could do because I had Mizu cut my hair..it's shorter by like maybe 2 inches.. Amazing, ne? So we got on the road it 6:12, I know this because Mizu told us just as we were getting into Sean. It was hilarious because as we were driving down the freeway people kept giving me funny looks through the window so I gave them funny looks back..many were Toshiya inspired XD.

After we got to SeaTac we had to park like a parking lot over from the hotel because there was no space anywhere else. So we ended up walking down the street to the Hilton. Some guy honked at us and I have a feeling it was because I had huge spiky pink hair and my top was kinda tight..not to mention Jen had a lolita style skirt on.. ~_~ Fuckers.. Once we actually got IN the hotel Sheila wasn't there.. So Mizu and I had to talk this guy to be our 'guardian' along with his daughter and Jen talked some girl into being her's for the con. Then we just kinda strolled around and stuff..we eventually found Sheila with her boyfriend who were ironicly looking for us through the huge crowds of people. I actually saw other Jrock cosplayers!! T__T It was great! The first girl I ran into I stared at for like ever trying to figure out who the hell she was exactly..I ended up just asking her straight out and she was Sakito! ^o^ After that I saw two girls cosplay a Yomi and Ruka and another two girls cosplay Hitsugi and I'm guessing Niya or Ruka..I couldn't really tell.. And some girl that was hanging out with the second pair of Nightmare cosplayers had a Batsu tie!! OMG! It was great! So I took a picture XD. Then We headed into a different part of the Dealers room and I took a picture of Harry..this really really hott Japanese guy who was selling tons of Jrock stuff.. I asked if I could take a picture of him because he also had a Batsu tie... >_>;; Then like right after that I found a Kyo cosplayer. She had a costume from the same PV as me. I also caught a Mana cosplayer! Her dress was so good! I had to take her pic in the line for the at the door registration.. Then I turned around and her friend was standing there and who was she dressed as? Klaha! XD I practically had a fit and she was having a fit because I knew who she was! I was happy people knew who I was.. Random people were like: "Hey! I like your Kaoru out fit! Old school Kaoru! That's cool!" The last two Jrock cosplayers that I found was a girl who had made this VERY, and I mean hella good Uruha costume. I almost died when I saw it. And there was a Gackt cosplayer!! XD Vanilla Gackt! I had to run up and get his picture and he was like: "OMG! Only if I can have your picture too!" It was amazing..

But it was kinda cool to have people take my pictures. We even had one guy stop his car in the middle of the street to get get pictures. He was like: "My friend and I have been here all day and you are like the sexiest cosplayer we've seen!! My friend told me that if I didin't get your picture he'd kill me!!" So I was like: *blink* Ok.. *takes off glasses, does her cool Kaoru pose*. But the best story of all is the really cute asian boy I saw! T_T We were sitting around the pool in the Mariott hotel, because in this hotel it's set up so that you can look down at this courtyard (which is the pool and like this dining area, when this heard of asian guys came out of no where. So naturally I stare at them (~_~ yeah yeah..) And one of them looked up at me and kinda smiled and then said something to his friend so I looked down. But then when I looked up he was looking at me and then smiled and waved. So I smiled and waved back and we stared at each other until he had to go up the stairs..because he would have fallen.. The I wanted to follow him but Mizu wouldn't let me.. So that was my grand day!

OOOH! And I have an actual autographed picture of Ruka!! I had a freaking shit fit in the middle of the dealer's room right in front of Henry when I found the like ten autographed Nightmare pictures. So I bought it..along with this Jrock grab bag thing where I got two CDs (Duel Jewel and Move), a Dir en grey really cool sticker with Kaoru on it, a Gackt keychain, a tiny Kagrra insent set, post cards one with each member of Psycho le Cemu on them, and these pictures of some band that I still have to figure out who they are. And the last thing I bought was this Nighmare wrist band that I took and put the logo of the wrist thingy on my backpack. XD Fucking awesome. It was so awesome..

So now that I've gotten through all that good news, here's my bad news for the week. It turns out that my dad's got this real horrible case of the flu so I won't be going over to his house for break, unless he suddenly becomes well during the week.. -_- Oh well.. Just means I've got to be stuck here with my sister and mum.. Horray..?

2005-04-05T15:09:00.000-07:00

Music: Nothin..
Mood: Excited

OMG! My costume's almost done!! Mum's making the side slits on the dress higher so that A) it looks more like the original, and B) so that it's not so small in the hips for me ~_~. It's gonnna look so cool. All I have to do is kill my Paging nylons, stick my bones on the front of my dress, and get my pink hair stuff and I'm set! XD And I can't forget my ID because I had a dream about doing that last night.. I was at the hotel with Mizu and I was showing her where we had to go to get in and we got up to the front counter to get our badges to get into the convention but I'd forgotten my ID to prove it was me! >< So I was like: "SHIT I CAN'T GET IN!!" and the dude was like: "That's ok, we'll just take a blood test to make sure it's you." So he pulls out all this paper work on me and I prick my finger to make it bleed and he tests my blood and some how my blood type went from O+, which I really am if you don't believe me look at the top of my blog, to B type blood. I freaked out because I knew that I was O+ and the guy kept saying: "No that's right. It says so on the paper work." I was really confused and told him about the blood typing I did last year in Biology with Mr. Brand and how I was O+ then. And the guy said: "Well, you're B type now." So I was very angry with Mr. Brand for lying to me.. And I got my badge and went in to the convention...

Argh.. I'm dreading the hair part of my costume.. It's going to be a bitch to do.. I have to cut my hair shorter so that it'll stick out easier. And some how I have to scrape up enough money for the hair color stuff.. Which is a $6 I don't have... And because I'm doing my hair on Friday before the convention I have to sleep all propped up on the couch so that my hair doesn't get mussy.. mer.. But I am bringing my CDs for the car ride! ^o^ I have to show Jen and Mizu how the chorus of Machievallism (haha I don't think I spelled that right but oh well..) sounds like: "Kaoru, Kaoru, hates cashews". Mmmmm.. Jrock..

2005-03-29T15:34:00.000-08:00

Music: The Cape of Storms - Hyde
Mood: Cold

Today I went to a college fair with Mizu. We got at SPSCC at around 7 in the morning, because we thought that we had to be there that early (we weren't quite sure though). So we waited, and waited...and waited..and wandered around until at 8 our freaking counselor showed up. -_- I was fucking pissed. She was late, because we asked her what time we were supposed to be there and she said 7:30. >_O We were there for an hour... But then we got mad and skipped 5th period and went to the mall. It rocked. And I went to 6th for the first time in a week. XD

I just found the coolest book ever to buy.. I want it sooo bad it's not even funny... It's called Jrock, Ink. : A Concise Report on 40 of the Biggest Rock Acts in Japan. I want to buy it! I think I will because it's only $12.98!!! And I think I have that much in my account.. O_O OMG.. I think I'm gonna buy it..

2005-03-26T19:21:00.000-08:00

Music: Last Song - Gackt
Mood: Ok

Huh..I haven't listend to Gackt in a loooong time. I kinda missed him.. O_o;; I've been so into Gazette, Nightmare, and MUCC lately I've sorta forgotten about him... So sad...

I've been thinking for a while lately and I've decided that I should probably get a boyfriend. ~_~ Yes, you heard right folks, I the great Taka Howe (cool how I have a name like that now, ne? XD) wants a man of her own. Freaking crazy.. Maybe Saku'll find me one..she's done that for a bunch of other people.. She could hook me up.. I don't know why the sudden change..I just feel like it... So to Saku, who I know is going to be reading this in the near future, you know my choices..now go! XD No..I'm just kidding, you don't really have to do anything if you don't want, but I am giving you a good chance here to mess with my life even more. Which kinda scares me slightly but whatever.. So yes..that is my decision... ><

I also have some not so new news. My sister's back on mum's shit list again. She never called my mum to let her know where she was spending the night last night. Mum knew that it was with one of her friends but she didn't have the address of the place where she was staying. So lo and be hold my sister's back on the ever so lovely shit list. Will it never end? -_-

And now for the more newer news.. I am in fact going to my dad's for spring break. He has to drive over and pick us up on Sunday the 10th of April because SakuraCon is on the 9th and he can't pick me up that day because there's no way for me to get my money back and if I don't go I'll die because then I can't cosplay or get cds or anything. So that's good that I get to go. Downloads and spiffy laptop with an uber fast connection here I come!

2005-03-25T12:31:00.000-08:00

Music: People Playing Poker
Mood: Bored

Stuck in the page room again... Horray? O_o;; Well we're sitting here playing Teaxas Hold 'Em and I just lost the last bit of money I had..granted I got stuck with the left over chips that Aaron had.. -_- So I had like 3 dollars worth in chips left. That really sucked. But I held out XD Little Emil boy, aka Kyle, beat me out. That was for you Mizu! Our Emil did it! XD

Mum said I could spend the night at Saku's tonight..just out of the blue she was like: "I guess since your sister is spending the night at her friend's you can go to her house.." It was crazily amazing. So now I wait for her to email me back..or call me when I get home..either that or I'll call her when I get off work.

Last night I went out with a ton of pages at the mall. Some of the Senate pages are fucking crazy man.. Joe and Trevor are my heros. ^_^ They're my favorite Senate pages. We got Jo to run and slide on the mall tile floors..freaking hilarious.. Then we all split up, some went to the movies, some went home, and I hung out with Trevor for like two hours. It rocked. We sat and talked about movies and played video games at GameStop. Then I had to call my mum from his cell and I got bitched out.. Supposedly when I first called her at like 7 I said I was in front of movie theater but then when she came to pick me up I wasn't there. I never remember saying that so I went with Trevor away from that entrance.. ~_~ But I finally got picked up..so it was all gravy. It's a shame that I couldn't hang out with Trevor and Joe earlier.. T_T They're both so awesomely cool.. And now it's the last day of paging and I wont see them again.. So sad!

2005-03-23T19:30:00.000-08:00

Music: The International Channel
Mood: Tired

My feet are tired. -_- But I got to ride the elevator today because on of the LA's said that we could. So we rode it down to the basement and back up to the fourth floor of the JLOB XD. I'm going to go to bed early again tonight..I'll need the sleep or I'm going to die tomorrow. But Mizu's coming to visit me! ^o^ Yay! I'll get to talk to her and stuff! This is gonna be short because I can't really type anymore.. ^_^;; Yeah..

2005-03-21T21:02:00.000-08:00

iNFORMATiON
Sex: Well I was a girl the last time I checked..
Birthday: August 22nd
Sign: Leo-Virgo cusp
Sibling(s): A sister and two half brothers
Hair color: Brown and black at the moment
Eye color: Brown
Shoe size: 8 1/2 or 9
Height: 5'9" or so..

REALATiONSHiPS
Who are your best friends: Probably Mizu and Saku. T_T My homies!

SPECiFiCS
Do you do drugs: Yes..for my mouth. What else would I take them for?
What kind of shampoo do you use?: O_o;; Um... that Dove stuff..
What are you most scared of: Never making it in life, spides, college (well the getting in part).
What are you listening to right now?: The tv
Who is the last person that called you?: Saku, last night when the power went out.
Where do you want to get married?: Ummm..I dunno...I'll see when I have to get married
How many buddies are online right now?: 7

FAVORiTES
Color: Blue, Purple, Green, Black...
Food: Italian, Japanese, and Thai
Boy's names: Don't have one
Girl's names: Teagan! ^__^
Subjects in school: TA! ^o^
Animals: I dunno..
Sports: swimming!

HAVE YOU EVER
Given anyone a bath?: My dog...
Smoked: Nope...Korean Sean distracted me.. >_>;;
Bungee jumped?: Nope
Made yourself throw up: No
Skinny-dipped: No
Made yourself cry to get out of trouble: XD Oscar moment bitches!
Pictured your crush naked: XD What do you think?
Actually seen your crush naked:. No..
Cried when someone died: No..I'm unemotional remember?
Lied: No..I've never lied.. >_>;;
Been rejected: I was never allowed to date before this year..so no.
Rejected someone: Yeah..not very often though ~_~
Used someone: Pssh yeah.
Done something you regret: Yeah

CURRENT
Clothes: Last years's district shirt and my blazer sweats...
Music: The tv
Smell: ...Ramen...
Favorite artist: O_o er...
Favorite group: ..I have many..
Desktop picture: My Diru desktop
Book you're reading: This Terry Brooks book..and The Great Gatsby for AP Lit
DVD in player: Nothing...

LAST PERSON
You touched: O_o shit I don't remember..
You IMed: Roki
Yelled at: My sister. Who else?

ARE YOU
Understanding: I like to think so...
Open-minded: See above
Arrogant: I guess I can be..
Interesting: XD Yes
Random: Yes
Hungry: No
Smart: People don't think I am. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE? I can if I choose to not screw around.
Moody: Yes because I'm tired from paging.
Hardworking: Depends..
Organized: No
Healthy: Er..I guess sorta
Shy: Yes T_T Nick is proof I am...
Difficult: I can be.
Attractive: I don't really think so.. ~_~
Bored easily: Yeah.. I guess..
Messy: XD yes.
Responsible: Yeah.. I guess...
Obsessed: >_O About what?
Angry: ...
Sad: No, not really
Happy: Yeah. Started paging
Hyper: Not at the moment
Trusting: People say I am.. whatever.
Talkative: Yeah.
Legal: Er.. a few years...

RANDOM
In the morning I am: Half asleep
All I need is: My cds and computer
Love: No one yet
I dream of: Random stuff..

WHiCH iS BETTER?
Coke or pepsi: Coke!
Flowers or candy: Flowers, they last longer
Tall or short: Taller

OPPOSiTE SEX
What do you notice first: Hair and eyes..
Last person you slow danced with: Saku at the German Convention
Who makes you laugh the most: Umm..
Who gives you a funny feeling when you see them: >_>;; Take a wild guess..
Who do you have a crush on: You should probably know...
Who has a crush on you: No one that I know of.. *sigh* -_-

DO YOU EVER?
Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone to IM you: No...
Wish you were a member of the opposit sex: Sometimes..for somethings..
Wish you were younger: Not really..maybe when I'm older I will..
Cry because someone said something to you: ..My mom...

NUMBER
Of time I have had my heart broken: ...
Of hearts I have broken: ...
Of guys I've kissed: kisses that i've appreciated? 0
Of girls I've kissed: XD wow... Ten bucks to whoever guesses this one
Of continents I have lived in: One
Of tight friends: 8
Of CD痴 i own: O_o er...
Of scars on my body: I'm a fucking scar whore.. I don't know..
Of things that i regret: ..umm...

YOUR THOUGHTS
I know: I want to go to sleep so I can wake up early in the morning..
I want: T_T cuddle with Nick..I'm a loser..
I have: not much more time before I have to go to sleep..
I wish: I don't know at the moment..
I fear: All this college stuff..
I hear: The tv
I search: someone for myself ,_,.
I wonder: will my shoes not hate my feet tomorrow?

FiNAL QUESTIONS
Do you like filling these out:I guess..
How many people do you think will look at this?: whoever reads my xanga? Like 3
Rock or Rap: Rock
Boys or Girls: Boys I suppose.. O_o;; Especially the pretty ones.
Gold or silver: Silver!
What was the last film you saw at the movies: at the movies? Ring 2 ><
Favorite cartoon/anime: ..that's hard..
What did you have for breakfast this morning: Eggs
Who would you love being locked in a room with: Nick would try and run away (>_O fucking Saku and Sarah I'm still bitter..)..so I'll say Tosh or Kao ^__^
Could you live without your computer: It's hard T_T
Would you color your hair: Yes!
Could you ever get off the computer: Yeah..
Habla espanol: Si! Hablo espanol!
Like watching sunrises or sunsets: Sunsets
Do you believe in love: Yeah I guess..
Do you believe in love at first sight: Kinda..

2005-03-21T13:39:00.000-08:00

Music: Nothing
Mood: Bored

Sitting here with nothing to do.. Yeah.. I'm paging.. Rock on... ~_~ I suck.. I've got another hour of sitting here to do...

So I went to Yakima over the weekend. Fucking crazy man... And, yes, Yakima does suck.. Nothing there... -_- Then I went with Saku and her boyfriend Gabe, and Staciey and her boyfriend Roddy to see the Ring 2. (Notice how I was the only one without a boyfriend? ~_~) But yeah..then we went back to Saku's house and spent the night, well Staciey and I did, and they smashed me in Saku's bed, which made my back hurt when I got up...

OH! And the power was out last night! It was crazy..like 20 blocks of Ruddel Road was completely out. So then I got to go to Wendy's (where every person and their mother was because the power was out..crazy people...) And then we got home and played Skip-Bo in the dark with candles... Then when I was going to sleep Saku called me all huddled in her room with a flashlight because she thought the Ring and Ju-on was going to get her. XD yeah..it was funny..

And so here I sit..at the capital..now an official page of the House of Representatives. Rock on..XD

2005-03-18T20:32:00.000-08:00

Music: The TV
Mood: Tired

God my friends suck.. Today was..well..interesting.. Sarah, Saku, and I went to the library during fourth period today and they both harassed me and poor Nick. >< They suck.. Saku got Sarah to draw a pictue of Nick and I...a fucking messed up picture. And then she had to go show him it and then make him read the bottom of her lunch container thingy, because it had Korean on the bottom and Nick can read Korean. T_T I wanted to cry because as he was leaving (and he said we were all weird ~_~ that's a good sign..) Saku yelled, "COME BACK SHE WANT'S TO ASK YOU OUT!" Right in the middle of the library. And then the librarian was asking what that was all about and Sarah and Saku told her that I liked Nick too. So then I had to go and apologize to Nick. But he must think I'm not all that bad because he started talking to me first..and he said that he understood because his friends do that to him too..but still. Saku says I should go after him, but truthfully, I have no idea what to do...she knows that..I've never needed to go after guys before... I've only been 'allowed' to start dating this year because the rule was: "you can date when you're 16". So I've never had to do anything because there was no way in hell that anything could really happen. ~_~ So I sit here and wait because I'm retarded..and Korean boys don't make any moves... And it doesn't help I'm shy when it comes to this stuff. Yes, me. I am shy believe it or not..even though I talk lost to almost every person who talks to me.. -_-

2005-03-16T20:48:00.000-08:00

Music: Goodbye - hide
Mood: Tired

I've been really tired the past few days. I don't know why exactly but I just have.. Maybe I'll be able to catch up on my sleep on the way down to Yakima on Saturday. I'm looking forward to the German convention down there this weekend. ^_^ It'll be fun..and we're gonna kick Cascade's ass...>_O Cuz we're gonna cheat..

Meghan came over to my house for a bit because she deleted all of her anime music off her computer and needed cds to put it all back. So I gave her my TMR, .hack/sign, The Pillows, Hyde, Do As Infinity Mix CDs. So hopefully she'll be back on track soon.

2005-03-12T20:22:00.000-08:00

Music: TV
Mood: >_O Pissed

ARGH! I swear to god one day I'm going to snap and break my sister in half just to put the world out of it's misery. She's been a real pain in the ass to everyone lately and it's fucking annoying. We were sitting watchin the Top 100 Scariest Movie Moments on Bravo and on after the show was Nightmare on Elm Street. >_O Now I've just about been horror movied out because of those god damn Korean horror movies that Saku and I rented and now she wants to watch that. So I told her to change the channel and that she could watch it some other time when I wasn't around or if she was over at one of her stupid little friend's house but no, she has to be a pain in the ass and keep flipping the TV channels back and forth (which when she does it really pisses me off for some reason, mostly because she changes it back and forth literally every 5 minutes) to the fucking movie. So what did I do? What else but bitch her out. Finally our fight got big enough that it woke up my mum and she made my sister go to bed early. And my sister had the nerve to call me a bitch. What the hell are you on? I'm not the one who's been a bitch for the past 6 months. And might I add, TO EVERY FUCKING PERSON IMAGINABLE >_O I want to leave my house...like now..

2005-03-12T14:27:00.000-08:00

Music: Goodbye - hide
Mood: Tired

~_~ Oh god..last night was crazy. Tosh and Yomi-boy are fucking crazy and hilarious. Tosh is so my favorite now..even more than Nick I think. Which is weird and strange.. I wanna go out with them again...before Yomi-boy leaves.. And maybe this time I'll actually talk more...yeah..shut up Saku I know I'm a loser. But then again maybe Tosh won't be tired as hell and will talk more next time too XD I know I can't talk to guys worth shit.. Oh welll... And that was one really confusing paragraph...

And all I have to say about what Saku and I did last night at her house is: we are soooo Yomi and Ruka. God it's scary how much we really are like them... And my lip is still weird Saku...because of you.. XD

2005-03-10T15:08:00.000-08:00

Music: The TV
Mood: Entertained

XD Wow..it was interesting today. I asked Nick if he talked to his friend to see if he knew Helen Shin. It turns out that he forgot her first name and could only remember her last name and he got all flustered. He asked me why I wanted to know if he knew her so I told him that my friend Dooho wanted to know if he knew his cousin Helen. Which I think only confused him more because he was like: "Dooho? Who's Dooho? Do I know him" so I had to explain again that Dooho was Helen's cousin and that I wanted to know if he knew who Helen was not who Dooho was. But he started asking all about Dooho instead, which went along the lines of: "Does he speak Korean?" Yes he does, he's from Korea. "He's from Korea?!" Yep "When did he come here?" >_O A couple of years ago.. "He goes to Thurston?" Noo..he's in college..he goes to SPS. "He's in college?! What's his last name?" ~_~ Umm...I don't remember because I've only known him for a littel bit and I've only heard his last name once but I think it starts with a J. "J? Is it Jin? Jang?" O_o;; Er...maybe one of those two...those sound the closest... He got all flustered again trying to figure out who Dooho was and I kept telling him that I didn't want to know if he knew Dooho but if he knew Helen instead. ~_~;; But it was still cute to see him get all flustered and apologize for know remembering them. He said that he must be stupid or something to not know and I was like: "Aww you're not stupid! *swoon*" But he wrote down both names so maybe I'll get an answer on Monday. Then after I got off the bus he started talking to Little Asian Kid With Cool Hair's friend who also has spiky looking hair and I think they were talking about me because I saw Kid With Cool Hair's friend today during fourth because I had to sit in the same room while he worked and I sharpened a million pencils for Mr, Denning and he mention something about "her" and "fourth period" So yeah.. ~_~ As long as it was good stuff about me I don't care...

2005-03-09T21:04:00.000-08:00

Music: Koroi Niji - Merii
Mood: Sore

I asked Nick about Helen Shin today. >< Fucking Helen Shin.. but anyway my prayers were answered! He didn't go out with her ever! Horray! But he had to think about it for a long time and had to ask me her name like three times. But he didn't know if he did so he said he's ask his friend if he did or not XD Aww.. my Nick..

I ripped open my fucking gums today at dinner >_O We went out to eat and I was so happy because I could actually chew my food with out much pain at all. But the thing I forgot was that I'm not supposed to use any straws. So my gums ripped open. >< And it hurt..but I finally got my drugs today so I won't feel the pain... Yay.

2005-03-07T09:27:00.000-08:00

Music: The $ocial Riot Machine$ - Gazette
Mood: Tired

No school for me today. Saku came by this morning and hung around for a couple of hours. It was pretty fun except when she kept making me laugh, which hurts like a bitch because it pulls my stiches >_O. Now I'm stuck with nothing to do.. Maybe I'll listen to Kisou because Saku gave me a copy of it today. I dunno... And I just realized I forgot to tell her to ask Dooho what his cousin's name is, the one who goes to Thurston, so I can ask Nick and see if he knows her.. That and I kinda want my avatars that she made me ^_^;; Yeah.. I should get those..

2005-03-06T15:34:00.000-08:00

Music: Renou Kousaten - Merii
Mood: Grumpy

Mum wants me to go to school tomorrow. -.- At this point in time there's no way in hell i feel like going to school. Especially with all these meds pumping through my system. I don't understand that woman. One day she won't let me go over to Saku's to 'do homework' and the next day she bitches that I'm missing out on to much school. What the hell is wrong with her? I know missing school is bad but I also know that I have to make it up and I do. Whatever...I'm probably just not going to go.

2005-03-06T09:25:00.000-08:00

Music: Tokyo Shinjuu - Gazette
Mood: Sore

I dunno if Saku can come over today.. My mum and sister got in another fight again. God..can't they give it a rest for just a week? -_- But maybe I won't have to go to school tomorrow..and maybe she can stay home from school and then I can either go hang out at her place or she can come over here.. That would work. God we are horrible children..trying to sneak out and stuff. I love every minute of it... Like last night Saku was trying to come up with plans so we could go out with these Japanese boys that go to her college. We can probably get away with it we just need to come up with something again...

The pain meds I have are running down... Noooo! I want to keep all of them! I have five left in the two bottles..and a bunch of other stuff, my antibiotics and my ibuprofen. I want to keep my pain meds T_T

2005-03-05T19:49:00.000-08:00

Music: Renou Kousaten - Merii
Mood: Puffy

Well..today was interesting. I went to the library and then to Costco, where I almost died by the way. It was quite the adventure. I also went to Saku's house for about two and a half hours. I almost fell asleep a couple of times.

I think I'm going to go search around for some pictures to use as ideas for the fasion show... I can't let Saku do all the work since I'm supposed to be hosting it with her. It makes me feel bad ^_^;; It's kinda funny how excited I am for the fasion show...I should get started looking now..

2005-03-05T07:47:00.000-08:00

Music: Nothing
Mood: (~.~)

Yes, on that face those are my cheeks. That's what they look like and feel like. All poofy. But I have my beloved ice pack to put on my face and my pain meds. I slept real good last night because three out of the four meds I take have the same side effects: "May cause drowsyness" But then I woke up at 7 because my face was sore and I was smashing my cheek into my bed. That wasn't fun...

Mum called Gateway this morning about our dying computer. They're going to send us a new hard drive because ours is screwed up. Then we have to take it to someone to recover all the data off our old hard drive. T_T Thank god I'll still have my songs and PVs and stuff! I didn't want to lose any of that!! Especially my two Vidoll albums that took forever to download and are only on my hard drive..they aren't on any disks or anything ><

I guess it looks like I get to go to Saku's today for a 'study session'. She just wanted me to come over so she could 'feel my stitchs' which for those of you who are retarded are in my mouth ~_~ Yes, my mouth and she wants to feel them. I should bring over the blank cds for her to burn. Because I want my Merry and my Diru album. I'm very greedy... Speaking of cds I think I'll go listen to my Disorder cd that I now have ^_^ I love you Gazette..Uruha you are the shit..and so are you Reita (god I hope I spelled that right...my drugs are kicking in..)

Now my sister's bitching at me. I don't want to fucking deal with her shit. I'm on drugs, in pain, and feel crappy and here she want's to argue over why I get soft foods to eat. WHY THE HELL WOULDN'T I HAVE THEM? You try eating with so many god damn stitches in your mouth you can hardly open it. And then she started bitching about how I got soft foods when I burned the hell out of my mouth. SHUT THE FUCK UP AND STOP BEING A JEALOUS BITCH. It fucking hurt to eat anything. Even the pudding I had so I don't want to hear any of your whinning god dammit >_O I'm not in the fucking mood to be messed with.

2005-03-04T19:30:00.000-08:00

Music: Hello - Hyde (off of Pop Japan TV)
Mood: Not hurting at the moment

I have found the secret to not becoming queasy and dizzy after taking my pain meds and that is to eat food. ~_~ The reason why I was like that earlier today was because I hadn't eaten food since about 5 the night before..so basicly I went 24 hours without eating food..then I ate at 6 and took my drugs ^_^ I want to get better soon so that I can go over to Saku's house and hang out with Tosh and Tots with her. That and I want to start practicing for the fasion show..that's going to be so fun..

2005-03-04T15:33:00.000-08:00

Music: The TV
Mood: @_@

Ugh...my mouth hurts...everywhere...but it's numb everywhere too. >< I haven't eaten anything since about 5 last night too... My meds suck too.. But I love them very much because they take away my pain T_T I love you drugs, Mrs. Lobe was right..you are good. God.. O_o;; yeah...Wooo I feel my pain meds kicking in... @_@ I"m getting tiredish and sorta dizzy.. I guess I can give you all a run down of my day today..Yeah..

Well I got to the dentist office place and the nurse lady came out and asked me a few questions on how long ago I'd eaten and when I'd taken my meds before the operation and then she took me back to the needle lady in the back. T_T I love that needle lady. The only thing i felt, for the most part was the prick from the numbing stuff she used on my IV area. That and a bit of a sting when the IV was in and she was taping it down and hooking me up the the heart rate monitor which was fucking awesome to play with. Oh, and I even got my very own oxygen supply ^_^ Then the doctor came and and the needle lady gave my knock out drug and she told me that it would make me a little dizzy and the room would spin a bit so I started naming off my people like Oland told me to.. and I think my last person was either Kaoru or Nick... ^_^;;; The next thing I remember was the nurse waking me up and I staggered and sat down in the wheelchair she had for me...then from there to the parking lot was a complete blank until I got in the car and I almost hit my head on the door because I was swaying so much.

@_@ I'm going to go lay down now..I'm starting to get really dizzy again..

2005-03-03T21:41:00.000-08:00

Music: Disorder Heaben - Gazette
Mood: Nervous Beyond Belief

>_>;; Tomorrow's the day. I get my teeth taken out. I'm so nervous. It's going to suck. T_T Everyone wish me luck. I'm so going to try that name thing that Roki told me about. You're supposed to name off people of the opposite sex that you like while you're going under the drugs they give you and the last person you name off in your hea is the person you're supposed to marry. Yeah..five bucks if you can guess two people on my list.. XD

I was being all sneaky and asked Nick if he could get me the homework and let me copy his notes for math on the bus on Monday morning because I'm not going to be at school tomorrow. It turns out he's going to be gone tomorrow too.. ~_~ Killing my plans.. So sad...

2005-03-02T19:55:00.000-08:00

Music: Carry - Gazette
Mood: Annoyed

What the hell is up with today? This morning I found out that mum might stop my guitar lessons because "It's getting to expencive" >_O I don't want to stop my guitar stuff. And why now, all of a sudden, does she want to stop? >< It's nof fair. And now my other computer is doing really strange things. I think it may have gotten a virus or something because now it refuses to start up like at all. T_T I need someone to come an look at the damn thing..I want my good computer back. All my music is on that one too! And all my clips! I'm never going to get that Ever Free PV now! And I was almost finished with downloading it too! Freaking sucks..

2005-03-01T19:02:00.000-08:00

Music: LEMONed I Scream - hide
Mood: Full

Wow..I have decided that I'm a blog whore. Yes.. XD Almost as much as I am a shoe and jacket whore.

Well, it looks as if I'm going to be in the fasion show. And I get to host it with Saku XD I can't wait... Jrock style like the whole time.. It'll be wonderful. O_O I can't wait to do my hair..that's what I'm really looking forward to...

Only three days until my operation. So nervous still >< It's going to suck lots...

And more news: I was supposed to be brave and talk with Nick but Beth and that weird kid on my bus killed it for me. ~_~ Damn you both..especially that weird kid who's name I don't even know. But I have ideas for tomorrow...yes... I'm such a dork..

2005-02-28T19:13:00.000-08:00

Music: Goodbye - hide
Mood: Happy

I'm so happy. I just had the biggest meal in almost a week. My tummy is happy ^_^ And look! I have hide songs now! I'm so happy! And it makes me sad at the same time..

Yeah..not much going on...

2005-02-27T11:22:00.000-08:00

Music: Kasumi - Dir en grey
Mood: Tired

...Yeah... I still feel depressed. So far the only thing that's made me feel slightly better is shopping with Mizu for Nina's birthday yesterday. -_-

Friday I have my operation. I hate needles so much. I'm scared about it and it's only for my wisdom teeth and to fix my gums. Mum went and got my meds for the operation. I'm so tired of taking drugs..I've taken enough this year alone to last me years.

I think I'm going to get off the computer..I don't really feel like being on it..

2005-02-25T22:18:00.000-08:00

Music: Shakespear in Love
Mood: Depressed

I fucking want to cry. I really, really wanted to do the play this year. Next year I figured I wouldn't have time because of running start. Hell I'd be giving up swimming for running start. How the hell am I going to be able to do a play next year? And there's no way in hell I can come up with the money to get my own guitar in time. It just fucking sucks.

2005-02-25T20:28:00.000-08:00

Music: HATE - Nightmare
Mood: Hungry

I want more food.. ~_~

Made more changes to this thing. Lots and lots of fanlistings. Beautiful no? Took me forever to add them. So many codes I could have cried..but I can't cry because I'm unemotional..remember Mizu? I didn't cry when my bird died..

My mouth is still dying. But I got mum to go and buy me pudding and yogurt so I can eat actual food besides cottage cheese. So I'm semi-full at the moment..but what I really want is that fried rice and English muffin that's by the microwave.. I want that soooo bad...

2005-02-23T11:24:00.000-08:00

Music: Ashita, Genki ni Naare - Miyavi
Mood: Cold

Well I got bored so here's a new blog layout. I dunno if I like it as much as my old Meevs one. Maybe I'll switch back..I dunno.. I should really learn how to make these things myself... That way I can have a wider selection to chose from..or make rather.. Yeah.. O_o;;

2005-02-23T09:53:00.000-08:00

You are cute and wispy! A very sexy, semi-normal
'do favored by many JRockers recently.

What JRock hairstyle are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

Huh.. I guess that's me.. O_o;; I think I wanna go mess with my hair now..

2005-02-23T08:12:00.000-08:00

Music: Miyavi's Valentines Day Message
Mood: >_<

WTF, Miyavi... I don't even have the whole clip, because my computer refused to download the whole thing, and he's doing retarded stuff.. "Happy Merry Valentines!!! *flails in front of the camera*" -_- He's freaking crazy...but it's so funny... Ah Meevs..

Argh. My mouth hurts. God damn potato wedges. I went to the beach yesterday and we stopped at some resturant for lunch and I burned my mouth hella bad on my sister's potato wedges. T_T The first thing I try to eat kills me. And the rest of our food was cold. What the hell!? Those people suck.... Now I'm starving because I can't eat food ~_~ Although I did try and eat soggy cheerios this morning..that was interesting... The good news is, is that I get to stay home today. Maybe my mouth will heal faster if I don't talk for like a day..

2005-02-21T16:51:00.000-08:00

Music: Yuki Hotaru PV - Plastic Tree
Mood: Disappointed

Well, this afternoon mum and I tried to start sewing my cosplay outfit. And her sewing machine refused to pick up the bobbin thread. -.- Damn thing. So we had to take the sewing machine in to some sewing place to see what the hell is wrong with it and the guy said that we weren't going to be getting it back until March 1st. God dammit... Maybe I can steal Mizu's sewing machine and use it next weekend... >_>;; Yes.... Miiiizzzuuuu....

2005-02-21T13:30:00.000-08:00

Music: Kiss - L'Arc~en~Ciel
Mood: Kinda tired

OMFG.. Last night was insane. I went to Saku's at like 2 because she wanted me to come on this picnic with her and her cousins. @_@ Her cousins are crazy..but I love them all..even Leroy. XD Her cousin Diana came and picked us up and we headed to Leroy's place where Saku and Diana made me stand at the door while they hid because he'd never seen me before. I got the "WTF?" face when he answered the door. It was hilariously funny. Then we all hopped in Leroy's car and drove up to Saku's cousin Jon's apartment in Renton. >< Leroy is a scary ass driver.. I thought I was gonna die on the freeway... So by the time we got to Jon's it was dark so we ate at his place and then randomly we were like: "OMG! Let's go to the Family Fun Center and play DDR!" And we did, making Jon drive because we didn't trust Leroy... There were toooo many little kids running around for my liking though..but it was still fun. Then we wanted to go do something else and it was decided that we would go rent The Grudge, again for me -_-, and head back to Jon's and watch it. But we ended up going to a karaoke place in Seattle instead. We were so fucking loud in there.. It was great. Then we had to head home because Diana had to go out for her dad's birthday, so back in the car with Leroy driving we went. But this time Saku and I were distracted with his spiffy digital camera that he had in his car. My eyes were watering from all the bright flashes XD So now I guess I'm an official 'family member' because I lived through that last night.

But yeah..crazy night running around the Seattle/Renton area... Then we watched a movie called Japanese Story. T_T The freaking Japanese guy died in it! It was so sad!! Australia killed him!

I suprisingly didn't get bitched out for not being home by 11 am this morning. Mum didn't seem to mind as much.. Maybe it's just because she thinks she's compensating for grounding my sister. I dunno..don't really care either. As long as I'm not in trouble.

2005-02-19T12:39:00.000-08:00

Music: Could You Be Loved? - Bob Marley
Mood: Slight Headache

Wow look some music in English. But it's not American music ^_^ For some reason Bob Marley just rocks my socks to no end but his son...eh..not so much..

I finally got my bloody fabric for my costume!! HUZZAH! And it's even better fabric than I originally had! This one's way more heavy and woven way better. My mum's gonna help me cuz she suddenly remembered that she had her own sewing machine.. ~_~ Maybe I'll just make her do most of it..cuz I'm a little grumpy and unwilling when it comes to sewing. But hopefully we'll get a bunch of it doen today. Like maybe the zipper put in and getting started on the collar! ^o^ And I found my good sissors so the edges of the fabric don't get fucked up like they did last time with the horrible, nasty sissors I was using. I will never use those stupid orange ones again.

I also got two new pairs of flip flops! One of them's all Aztec-ish with the colors and style and the other is cool and brown with beady things on them. So wonderful. My sister gets none. XD None. And there's no way in hell she's going to wear any of them because the last time I let her wear some of my flip flops she killed them by ripping the little thing that goes between your toes completely out of the shoe. YOU KILLED MY FAVORITE PAIR OF SANDALS.

I got new Pura Turi stuff! OMG! I'm so happy! And yes Ryutaru does play the guitar..the lazy bastard... I want the Melancholic PV really, really bad though. But the bloody YouSendIt file is maxed out. Too many people got to it before I did... I'll just ask for the person to re-upload it so I can get my hands on it XD

2005-02-15T19:43:00.000-08:00

Music: The Cape of Storms
Mood: Ok

Wow..I'm so proud of Mizu and I. We tried out for the musical today after school. It was hella random too. During the announcements she was like: "Dude..we should so go try out for that.." So we went. It was hilarious. Mike Berry was there too and we sat in the front of the theater and had a great time. I got Mike to sing Happy Birthday for his audition piece with the 'chachachas' thrown in there too XD It was freaking funny as hell. And as for mine and Mizu's audition..I dunno.. Mine sucked because I didn't drink any water before I went up and my throat was all dry. ~_~ And I was nervous as hell because I don't think I can sing worth crap. I dunno. But I thought Mizu did good. She sang her presidents version of "What's This" from Nightmare Before Christmas. Now Mike and her are my heros... They'll probably stick me in some random background person with no lines being what Mike calls "eye candy of the play" XD Yes..I get to be eye candy. It's a shame I can't stage dive.. I really want to do that.. I will some day I suppose. If I'm brave enough..the whole getting my shirt ripped off and being molested like crazy by insane fans kinda throws the whole thing off..

2005-02-10T21:06:00.000-08:00

Music: Something on TV
Mood: Full

I'm eating LEMONed I Scream. XD Ah that's a bad joke.. But I couldn't help it..and I really am eating lemon ice cream..or sherber rather...

So as you can all see I got away with the report card thing. I pulled the water works on mum and she hugged me and told me that I did a good job bringing up my math grade as much as I did. It was crazy..I should get an Oscar for my performance.

Dude..I've been on a Plastic Tree kick for the past day... I dunno why either..so tonight I was looking at pictures of them.. T_T I dunno..I just love those guys. I should really go and look for more songs and stuff by them.

2005-02-09T15:08:00.000-08:00

Music: Whoo Hoo - 5, 6, 7, 8's
Mood: Anxious

Why the hell am I listening to this song.. I don't like the 5, 6, 7, 8's very much.. Whatever..

This may be one of the last times people may hear from me. I don't know how my mum's gonna react to my report card. But I do have a defence for each grade I have. Not to mention my share of nasty bits of info she has said over the first semester to better my case. I'm so worried..but this is my fault for having the grades I do. I know... But my mum doesn't need to know that. As long as my ass stays out of too much trouble I'm going to pull anything I can. Dude..I'm fucking going to hell for this.. -_-;; But at least I get to see my friends at school if I'm totally put on my mum's shit list. I just won't be able to go anywhere or go on the computer anytime soon.. T_T I feel icky..but maybe I'm working myself up to much.. I dunno..I'll find out in about an hour or so..